I don't actively want to die, but if I didn't wake up tomorrow, I don't think I'd mind. I really thought I got over this kind of passive suicidality a couple years ago, but it's coming back and I don't know what to do. I think I just need to talk to someone I trust, except for that there's only one person in that category (I have extreme trust issues) and she's dealing with her own shit, so I don't want to burden her with mine. Whenever I mention that I feel sad or numb to my other friends, they think I'm just joking or something because I do actually have very dark humour. I guess I just isolate myself and then wonder why I don't have many real friends, but I don't know how to trust people properly anymore cos it feels like every time I do, I get stabbed in the back. My fault for trying to be the therapist friend I guess.
#dying slowly from the inside out
small horizon
native pelican
Could I add you? You could vent to me I would try to help
small horizon
Could I add you? You could vent to me I would try to help
maybe, I'm not sure how much I really want to talk to a random stranger on the internet, but sure