I don't know what's happening

[light kraken]

I've been in the same group of friends for a few years now and I feel none of them really know who I am. Ever since I became very different and I feel one of the big ones is finding out my gender identity and that is the main thing seperating us. The person I want to be is very different from who they know. I've tried coming out to them but they didn't have the best reaction. Many of them just flat out refused to call me my new name and use correct pronouns and the others would just forget so often that it didn't feel like they where trying. Since then my gender has kind of faded from their memories since I've been mentioning it less and that has caused me stress. That stress then causes me to dissisotiate in short bursts but I still find myself doing and saying things and I'll be confused. one moment I'm gone just not there someone walks up to me says something I respond than after that response I come back confused how I did that when I wasn't really there at all. I really wish I could seek a theropist and that's is my top prority for when I'm on my own but due to the fact that I would have to explain this to my parents so they might have a chance of beliving me I would have to explain the fact that I'm queer to them and that would be a risk to my saftey so this is really my only option and I just really want help.

[bright moss]

I suggest dropping your 'friends', but coming out I can't really give advice in coming out. About your therapist situation, if you have a help line to call, then do it, or you can text the help line. Another option is to text a free therapist. I hope you have or had a great day

[light kraken]

I don't really want to get rid of them because I have so many good memories with them and if I were to do that I wouldn't really have anyone at school