If I really have any reason to live I can’t find it

[white bluff]

I’ve lost everything, I don’t even know why, I can’t feel anything anymore, anything I thought I had I’ve lost, everyone I care about hates me and won’t let me explain, I’m getting sent to a mental hospital soon but, I wish i could go sooner, I need to get out of here, I need something, but everything I get breaks every one I love leaves me, every time I try mf get better or ask for help I’m hurt more, I have no reason to keep going, no reason to stay, my family hates me, my friends hate me, my body hates me, god hates me, I even hate myself

[rose torrent]

Hey, I’m really sorry you’re feeling like this. It sounds like you’ve been carrying so much hurt for so long, and that’s exhausting. I don’t know the full story, but I do know you don’t deserve to feel so unwanted or broken. Even if it feels like everyone’s against you, your worth isn’t decided by how they treat you. You’re still here, and that means there’s still a chance for things to change, even if right now it feels impossible. I hope you get better dude, much love from me to you💛