What hurts the most is how easily she replaced me. After the holidays, it took her less than a week to completely push me aside and act like I didn’t matter anymore. After everything we went through and all the trust I gave her, she moved on like I was nothing. And as if that wasn’t enough, she laughs when I’m having panic attacks or anxiety attacks — like it’s some kind of joke or performance. It’s one of the most humiliating and cruel things I’ve ever experienced. Instead of helping or even showing basic decency, she mocks me while I’m at my most vulnerable. No real friend would ever do that.
What makes it even worse is that she openly told me she would fake mental breakdowns, panic attacks, anxiety attacks, and even entire mental illnesses just so she could get out of lessons early or avoid things she didn’t want to do. She literally laughed about it, like it was some kind of game, while I was sitting there knowing how real and painful those experiences are for me and so many others. It’s absolutely disgusting and disrespectful to everyone who actually struggles with their mental health. She has no idea what it’s like to fight through real anxiety or to have a genuine panic attack where you can’t breathe or think straight — and yet she’s willing to pretend just for convenience and attention. I can’t even put into words how angry it makes me to watch her treat mental illness like an excuse or a performance, while at the same time telling everyone that I’m faking mine. The hypocrisy is unbelievable.