Bro everything is going to shit in my life rn. Mental health declining,my partner commited recently I found out on tuesday.i relapsed now my arm looks like a battlefield.my eating is getting worse(I mean starving myself/making myself sick). But everything happens for a reason right? . I deserve all of this stuff happening.i don't even deserve help anymore. I just should stfu and grow tf up because people have it worse then me.
#TW sh n mentions of suicide
hollow harness
It's my fault for now Noticing she was getting worse.i should've noticed and helped her. I was to focused on myself.
Im actually pathetic. I can barely stay clean for a day. I'm constantly thinking about suicide but I don't go through with it now I kinda lost all my reasons to stay.
It'd be a shit move to kms because it'd be selfish.
My family knows I'm struggling,my family doesn't care I lost a 'friend' (they didn't know I was dating her) to suicide.
I told my mother first she didn't care. I told my family after.did not Fucking care.
I just want SOMEONE.ANYONE to care about me.
I know my friends care
But it just doesn't feel like it
I'm so sick and tired of all of this shit.
Same old shit
coarse token
you do not deserve what happened to you.
you deserve help.
you should open up if and when you´re comfortable.
suicide is not selfish, the thought is a cry for help - something has to change, but you couldn´t find what, so you looked in the mirror and started to attack yourself.
I care about all of it, and I´ll try to defend you.
I´ve been there, I´ve turned on myself, but I´ve tried to charge through it, just to see what´s on the other side.
I´m still healing.
we can find or build a fortress if you want to.