look, writing is a huge vent to me. i absolutely adore writing and spend hours crafting meticulous plots but recently my father is literally grabbing and taking my computer and notebook away from me; anything i can write with is gone. the thing that made me furious is that my father ripped all of my plots to shreds in front of my face and burning them as well as deleting everything on my computer. he says its an unhealthy coping mechanism since i mainly only write about dark things like torture and rather questionable topics with depictions of violence, but can he just accept that this is who I am? my mother accepts me and i dont understand why he cant. it's driving me literally insane. i spent hours on my stories. i'm self harming constantly and he found out when he made me roll up my sleeves and he is furious. he screamed at me. he took away all of my sharp objects and life is like a prison now. what is the point of me being alive? why don't I just steal the medicine from my mom's cabinet and kill myself? my hobby has been stolen away from me. what is the point? my mother slips me a notebook and pen at times. i never keep it hidden good enough. honestly, just want to die at this point
#does it even matter anymore...
oblique ermine
modest cedar
look, writing is a huge vent to me. i absolutely adore writing and spend hours c...
It’s a good start that you found out that writing helps you to cope with all the stuff. Your dad sounds like a pretty awful person, but he didn’t deserve that you loose the fight against him. You should win the fight. Killing yourself isn’t an option. There will be better times. Promise.
silent summit
Have you ever tried writing in secret? Like writing a story somewhere to help you cope better? Or maybe I have a tip! It’s nice to ever imagine a few stories to write in your mind then you might even feel a bit better… I always daydream in my mind.
velvet heron
Have you ever tried writing in secret? Like writing a story somewhere to help yo...
she has tried, but her father seems to be abusive and uneducated.
velvet heron
look, writing is a huge vent to me. i absolutely adore writing and spend hours c...
it seems like you´ve talked about this with your mother.
your relationship with your father is clearly very unhealthy.
is their relationship healthy or not?
I expect it isn´t based on this message.
have you asked her about that?
oblique ermine
it seems like you´ve talked about this with your mother.
your relationship with ...
their relationship isn’t exactly healthy and mainly my dad changed after a miscarriage (my mom was carrying his son and that just hit him really hard because in my culture we treasure boys more than girls because they carry family name and just are considered better) and he started yelling at my mom and stuff and in a way I have it way better than she does but she still tries her best to help me which I feel really horrible for