spice bay
(first of all, sry for my english grammar)
one day before our flight to spain i came out to my parents as trans and also told them my new name. my hope was that maybe they could use the name and my new pronouns when we're on vacation cuz no one knows us there and it would be good for me to experience being called by my new name instead of my deadname. they said that they would try to but now, 2 weeks later (still on vacation), they haven't even tried once. i js thought 'maybe they need time for it' cuz it's not easy for them either. but then my dad texted me that he misses the old me and will never able to see me as his son, only as his daughter forever, that he doesnt wanna talk to meand that he's so sad that the 'old me' is gone. i had a breakdown after that but then it got better again. yeah well then two days later my mom wanted to talk to me abt that again. she thinks that i need therapy and that its not normal to feel like that. she also said that i'm too much to handle for her and that hurt like hell. one of her questions was why i wanna be a boy so badly when i have the perfect feminine body and why i 'chose' to be a boy. like bro i didn't chose this i js wanna feel comfortable in my own body and feel like myself. but my parents don't get that :,)
how can i make them understand that this is who i truly am?? i've already tried so much and it's getting exhausting..
small update, we're doing family therapy now lets see what happens ig
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