Another update (explanation in replies)[tw: sh]

[knotty mango]

It's been getting worse since my last post.

so I've been biting myself in anxiousness and stress and I'm getting less sleep

I just don't know what to do

I don't know if Im overreacting or not

I haven't felt happy in days

All my coping tactics are just not working anymore

it feels like god hates me (if there even is a god)

I need new coping mechanisms or my biting might get worse

Another update (explanation in replies)[tw: sh]

man..

[knotty mango]

last update for now. It feels like I'm becoming an afterthought.

[harsh parrot]

I haven´t read your last post(s)
is there something you think you´re reacting to?

[knotty mango]

basically my bf is beginning to talk to me less and I'm becoming a third wheel in my relationship with him. I only hear from him when he says gn and he doesn't do that sometimes too.

My last post btw https://discord.com/channels/1077258761443483708/1401642112507969556

[harsh parrot]

oh...
I´ve also had some relationships phase out like that
you should really talk to him

[drifting zephyr]

if he's doing that you should confront him and tell him that you're feeling like he's not including you in your own relationship

don't stick with a guy that doesn't love you

[knotty mango]

Ive tried once but my anxiety keeps stopping me and keeps making me think "what if he just ignores you" or stuff like that

[drifting zephyr]

if he does then he doesn't actually love you...

[harsh parrot]

the problem is that he´s already ignoring you (intentionally or not)
it can´t hurt to speak up anymore.

[knotty mango]

the other thing is like. I have no chance in a love life except this one because of well. No one really likes me that much (no one that I know at least)

[drifting zephyr]

from what i'm seeing here, it's better alone than with him.

he doesn't deserve you.

[knotty mango]

What do I say to him though.

[harsh parrot]

I´d probably put it like this

[knotty mango]

because like I actually might ||self harm|| if I break his heart.

[drifting zephyr]

so you do care about him a lot and you're scared of losing him

but honestly...

you should ask him and at least let him know that you're feeling left out

[knotty mango]

I'm confronting him now and I feel so fucking anxious || my biting is getting worse ||

Wish me luck bro

[harsh parrot]

it´s normal to be afraid.
good luck.

[knotty mango]

.. I confronted him.

I feel like shit now.

The guy that I thought he was cheating with is actually the reason

.. Welp I feel worse then I did before now.

[harsh parrot]

oh, that sucks...

[knotty mango]

My biting is getting worse.

[harsh parrot]

I feel like I´m not very good at comforting or helping sometimes.
I hope you can sort this out, you get better, etc.
if you need to talk, I´ll still be here

[knotty mango]

so my bf confronted him ( I don't know what happened because it was in DMS)

I still have anxiety about it. And I don't know why.

If your not available to talk I understand I can check later

[knotty mango]

it feels like I keep having mini panic attacks 😭

I might just take a break from just. Everything. For a bit