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[covert wind]

I had finally given up on feeling ok just with pills, and I relapsed last night after being 3 months clean. The only reason this was worth mentioning is bc I had cut in a lot more places than usual. I usually just stick with my left arm, but last night I cut my left and right arms and thighs. It burned at first but it didn't matter after a while. The meds + the cuts made me feel high on emotion, like the bottle of holding things in just dumped out water naturally instead of being forced out

[charred flame]

Ohh, please be okay
Why are you doing this?

[covert wind]

Yeah i am fine now dw

And I just don't really know how to explain why

Guess it's bc I have been feeling like there is no passion between my partner and I

We have never slow-danced together, even tho I have asked and we were given opportunities

I mean they also never check-up on me

I told a server that we are both mutually in about me cutting, and two of my friends (I love them a lot/p) asked me how I was doing

But my partner said nothing

Ik they saw it

All I got was a good morning gift

That was the only thing they sent me

For the whole day

[charred flame]

ohh, I feel so sorry that you have to experience that :<

[brave zenith]

Relapsing always feels horrible, but you got 3 months. That’s like 1/4 year. You can be really proud of yourself. Have you treated your wounds,like desinfect them, so that they can heal well? (Sorry for my horrible English)

[covert wind]

Yeah they are already in the process of healing thank you for checking <33

[covert wind]

It's okay, thank you for listening :)