#(TW: sh) Vent: Im not good enough

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copper junco
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I have some really nice and funny online friends, but i feel like compared to them i dont matter. They're all so talented and skilled in so many different things. I try to be like them but i dont make it halfway. i feel like nothing i do can make me as good as them. Like I said they are great people to be around, but I feel like ill never be enough.

I also feel like because im not good enough they might forget me or just stop caring about me all together. I sometimes feel like i dont have anything useful to do in my life and these thoughts pop in and out of my head.

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im gonna just spit everything ive been feeling into this post so here we go

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I also kinda feel like ill never find someone who could want to be with me, like i try to be funny and nice and silly. but the more i think about myself the more i think that im unlikable and annoying

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i also feel like ill never be able to better myself for those i wish would like me

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thats most of how ive been feeling

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i feel so frustrated when im doing things and i just give up because i think of how other people can do it better faster

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and how those people that can do it better than me are so close to me

copper junco
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ive also just felt zoned out?

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idk it feels like i cant feel

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everything feels out of focus and blurred together

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(TW: sh) Vent: Im not good enough

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ive cut a few times before

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and that feeling has crawled back a few times

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normally something happens for it to go away

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but when it sticks around it hurts

pliant cypress