[TW: Suicide]

[devout fulcrum]

||Gonna KMS soon, I give up, I’m worthless, ugly, annoying||

[devout fulcrum]

Failed

[hybrid notch]

Hi Goober (Is it okay to call you that? If not please let me know what you want me to call you by)
You aren't worthless at all! There are so many people who care for you.
You are beautiful even if you don't see it, and even if others don't see it- you are still beautiful :).
Sometimes being annoying isn't a bad thing at all, and i really doubt you are annoying- at least to the point of it being bad.
Is it okay if I ask why you're giving up?

[devout fulcrum]

Im giving up because I lost a lot of my friends because im trans, I should just die, its my fault, another one of my friends ||commited suicide|| recently and i keep blaming myself for it

[hybrid notch]

If those friends left you because you're trans, they weren't your friends at all. Its nothing to do with you, they just couldn't accept that being a female is who you are as a person.
Your other friend did that because they couldn't handle all of their emotions, and they couldn't see that there are other ways out.

They didn't do it because of you.

And no, you shouldn't die. You have a lot to live for and you are loved and valued.

[devout fulcrum]

I hate myself

The knife looks so tempting

[devout fulcrum]

Why am I loved WHEN I DONT HAVE A LIFE

[carmine vigil]

You are loved. And people say they don't have a life because of the situation. You do have a life. You just haven't found a purpose in the life yet. Don't let the negative thoughts win. It takes time to build it up and understand it. Half my friends all turned out bi/gay/lesbian.

They went through the same thing. Now they have a purpose to live for.

[devout fulcrum]

I’m not doing good at all, there is a knife in my bag but I got so many layers of weighted blanket on me it’s hard to breathe

[oak cargo]

Please stop. I know you genuinely do not care, but I, along with many other people you are unaware of will be devastated if you go through with this. Think about that friend you had that just ended their life, think about how guilty that made you feel. The same feeling will happen to all of us if you spend your last moments like this. Again, i'm sure you do not fucking care, but I will cry like I've never cried before, I'll cry in bed like my whole world just ended. I'll feel guilty just like you, and I'm certain many others will feel the same. We all love you more than you'd like to believe, please, if anything, don't break our hearts.

[devout fulcrum]

I CANT KMS BECAUSE IM STUCK UNDER LAYERS OF WEIGHTED BLANKETS

[carmine vigil]

Weighted blankets are meant to be used in extreme cases like this. Sleep with it. A lot of people have one. It makes it feel like somebody is holding you in place. Or hugging you. Don't use it all the time though.

A psychologist/general doctor would be able to prescribe you a much better one.

[carmine vigil]

Try to find something to live for. Nothing else matters. Your friends who suicided would want you to live on for them. We want you to live on for us.