Sometimes I feel like my only purpose in life is to be someone who helps people to smile. That's not a bad thing it's just that my smile is fake. I tried so hard not to look sad in front of people because I don't want them to feel sad and I don't want to seem like I want attention. I'm even iffy about texting this rn. But it's been happening so long that I feel that I have no emotions. I don't even know if this is my true self anymore. Maybe I will do good in the world at the risk of tearing myself down idk. Also I know I do have two emotions and they are nostalgia & envy. I am on a lot of social media and then I see these old photos of things from my childhood or some photos of relationships. And my heart sinks like I'm going to have a heart attack. I really want a relationship with something or some one but yet no one has come. No one cares about me as much as I care about them. You know what I might actually die from heartbreak which is insane.
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Sometimes I feel like my only purpose in life is to be someone who helps people ...
maybe you just need to disconnect, you know? maybe you just need a break from everything. I feel the same, just here to make people smile. but it keeps me going. every day I wake up I have two goals to fulfill; make people happy, and spread positivity. I think that it's a good first step with.. literally anything- to become aware of the issue if there is an issue. and you have done that, you have become aware that you aren't feeling happy by making other people happy. but why? is it HOW you make them happy? is it the PEOPLE you try to make happy? is it how they REACT when you try and make them happy?
you said you really want a relationship, as a lot of us do. that goes for me too. but before that, you need to have your own life in check. are you happy with yourself already? if you're not already happy with yourself and your life, a partner won't necessarily make things easier.