I’m tired of hurting the people around me. I try to fix myself everytime but I’m always the fucking same, I don’t know why I do it or target one person every fucking time I don’t want to hurt her but I seem to do it everytime, I wanna get better but I can’t and it’s affecting my mental health so fucking much I’m done.
#(TW:SH/SH mention)I’m Tired
sacred spoke
sacred spoke
It’s like I wanna hurt myself and make myself feel bad for the words I’ve said. I wanna experience the pain I’ve caused twice as bad understand how horrible I am, but I’m terrified I could never bring myself to harm myself, I’ve intentionally reckless so I hurt myself somehow, but I feel like a fucking attention seeker because I want people to see the marks I’ve caused but I don’t want people to feel bad for me because I don’t deserve it I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me I’m messed up.