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I have been waiting to make this post for almost three years. The time has come to confidently announce to the world who I am, wholly, and with no more hiding. My name is Exzj and I am a transgender woman.
I’ve known my whole life. In kindergarten I was jealous of a girl named Lauren’s long, beautiful black hair. In middle and high school I envied the girls who were beginning to become young women while I myself became a broken shell of a person. In college I hated myself because I saw my girl friends become strong, independent women and I only felt jealousy. It was a horrible, isolating feeling.
In my junior year of college, when I was 21, I started drinking. Before I could legally purchase alcohol, I noticed that I drank what liquor was around very quickly and without thought. When I turned 21, I woke up at 11 am, went to the liquor store, and began drinking. I don’t remember what happened after 6 pm. I couldn’t even enjoy my 21st birthday because I was too excited at the prospect of pushing my emotions away for an evening. Eventually I stopped going to class and was forced to drop out of college and go to out-patient rehab.
When I overdosed in 2021, I knew I had to make a change. The next year, I came out as transgender to my psychiatrist, although I didn’t know that’s what I was doing and I didn’t know where it would lead me.
Today, on July 16, 2025, my 25th birthday, I am not just excited, but PROUD to be able to tell the world what I have been wanting to shout to the sky my entire life. I AM A TRANSGENDER WOMAN! Today, I can have a genuine smile on my face. Today, I’m cali sober and am so excited to begin this new life I’ve created for myself. No longer will I be a slave to the pressures of society. I’m going to take back all of the years of pain that I’ve lost. I hope the world is ready for me, because I’m ready for it.
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