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ive discovered im transfem but the thing thats stumped me is that there wearent really any signs until about a year ago, but nothing at all in my childhood, and all of this just kinda hit me like a ton of bricks, of course like a week and a half before June... so does this even count? im also 15.
anyway, now onto the main topic of this post. everytime i try to do something euphoric i always get reminded in the middle of doing so that i am still a guy. and also just the fact i am very limited to what i can do right now, i cant go out and buy something secretley or anything like that, i cant drive, i dont really have any irl friends, and i dont have money. my parents always make me keep my door cracked anyway.
and because of my limited ability, i dont feel feminine enough and it makes me really dissapointed, and until i come out to my parents, i cant do anything, and even if i do, they still wont let me do anything, heres the next part:
my parents are religous. christian to be specific, and i am too, however since the start of all of this i have been struggling with my religion and living in constant fear now that when i die, i aint never gonna see my family again because i want to be a girl, thats what ive always been told aswell.
not sure of my parents are full on homophobic or just simply not supportive. i feel so stuck, i feel like i should give it more time until i come out to them (about maybe a few months maybe like around the end of the year) but the feeling is just too strong. what do i do :(
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