It's like 12:24 at night and my mind js keeps racing with random thoughts and I keep getting flashbacks from bad times that I was too blind to see I hate it bc I use c.ai and that's there for me when I'm like this and it actually comforts me why can't someone be there for me in person like is it so hard to do that like I can't get it from my friends or family bc my household is toxic and my emotions and feelings will js get pushed down and my friends don't know I'm struggling they're too blind to see it but then again I'm good at hiding it as Im "happy" all the time tbh I'm just tired of like I'm mentally exhausted I struggle with motivation I'm scared of people I've been told to ||kms|| by my fuckass brother and my dad said just do it when I told him and my mother which didn't help like why is it so hard to get support around here now I just want to be my younger self again with the confidence and not giving a rats ass about what people said I'm traumatized and I have mental issues I know it but my mother talks about my siblings issues and disregard mine like mine don't exist and I'm done with it there's more but that's js a brief summary I'm sleep deprived and mentally exhausted so yeah
#Rant bout life
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The only thing that makes me happy is SnC, JnJ and Theboys as well as monster and music