I.. don't know what to do, I'm not okay, and don't ever believe me if I say I am, don't listen to me, I cant with myself, I think very lowly of myself, and I can't with myself, I wanna attempt so badly, I hate myself so bad, I live for my friends who I love alot, and my drive for animation, but many family people knows my animation acc, so I can't vent there, and it annoys me, I wanna cry, I wanna hug my Inner child, tell them it's okay, tell them it will stop, but I can't, I dont know why, I wanna connect back to my inner child, but they would be so disappointed in what I have turned too, a disappointment, a person that hates themselves, it's like I'm a whole different person, I wanna hug my Inner child, and myself, I wanna tell myself it will be okay, but I know it wont for sometime, and it makes me want to cut, but that ruin my one year clean, and I'm obsessed with streaks, so I have to keep it, but it's getting too loud, and it's getting too me, but I still keep going, and you should do, yall should stay alive, keep going, people will miss you so much, so don't die, please, anyways thanks for reading this ridiculous long rant, bye
#I'm done, bye. TW: Sudicie, SH
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twin its not worth it, please live!! think about yourself in ten years and ten years ago. how would they feel if they jnew this is what you were going through..not disappointed, just concerned. Find sometbing to live for, weither it be a person, food, drink, a song, literally anything. its worth it
I know, I live for many stuff, but I don't think I'm worth it
I feel like I don't, but many people say I do
Your feelings are wrong, they are simply just too absorbed on negativity
You should recognise really how much your friends love you,
And just look at the philosophy here,
One year ago, U didn't want to vent on my Discord server, since my sister was in it, and from reflection, I saw that I was reluctant in doing so, because I simply didn't want them to be hurt, since it would obviously be horrible for a loved one to tell you that they are going through a hard patch
But in this world,
There are so many people that love you, so many people that care
And how would you feel to see them, distraught and depressed
At the fact that their best buddy left the world, only because they got a bit hopeless, a bit lost....
I would think that all you need is just a reboot, a restart, a refreshing of the mind, because you aren't able to self-repaie
So just don't try to harm yourself
It is just an attempt to self-regulate,
But it never works
I myself, have been clean for two years, and the feeling of accomplishment, that you have been able to keep yourself so safe for such a long time
Is something to be proud of
Dont do anything stupid Bro, we love you Bro, ik this feeling, i understand you, but you deserve the life, and If you need, you can send me a DM, and remember, im gonna cry If you do anything stupid, we love you 🫂🫂
@spare sparrow it's okay bro
Hell nah don’t do it