TW: SH

[sharp lion]

I have been 1 month clean. But am I clean? I pick at my lip until it bleeds and I can't stop. No-one notices because it looks like my lips are chapped. I have a knife in a tissue box next to my bed. I also have matches in there. I used to use the knife to cut myself, and every I want to use it, but I don't only because I fear getting caught. If I move the knife, someone will see. I just know it.

[solemn night]

Hey, it’s okay. As long as you don’t burn yourself or cut yourself, you are pretty much clean. Please, move the knife away from yourself, and just distract yourself away from it.

[sharp lion]

Thank you for the help. Although before I saw the message a tried to cut myself with a bottle cap. IN PUBLIC. Im glad I stopped just then.

[solemn night]

Jeez, me too!

[sharp lion]

What?

[sharp lion]

OH I JUST REALIZED WHAT YOU MEANT

TYSM

Im a little slow sometimes ._.

[sharp lion]

Uhhh

As soon as I grabbed the knife, I tried to cut myself. I managed to stop myself before I broke skin but I have marks on my arm. Does that count as a relapse?

[solemn night]

I would say, as long as it doesn’t bleed, let’s not call it a relapse.

[sharp lion]

Ok

Ok I still have the knife near and Im scared Im gonna cut myself if I grab it again

[solemn night]

KICK IT AWAY

[sharp lion]

LOL