In the time ive been gone i have almost attempted suicide but stopped myself, i cut my ankle (on accident) while shaving but to be honest, i let it bleed for a while. Just yesterday around 2:30pm i went to a consultation for a therapist and while i answered truthful most i lied when I said ive never done SH because my mom was with me and i will NEVER tell her, because while she doesn't mean to, she would just make me feel bad that i even thought of cutting myself, somehow she made me feel guilty that I have had thought of suicide. I love my mom but sometimes she makes things worse, along with that, a few weeks ago i broke my phone and i felt so bad about it and when she called the next day she made me feel worse so i don't plan on telling her that ive cut because ive been clean for a month now but i will never tell her
#Tw- suicide and sh being brought up
lyric vector
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As a person who has done similar, I think that all you need to do is figure things out more with your therapist, because I was in a similar situation, where I was screwing up my underarm really bad (I wore a jacket or long sleeves so my mum didn't know) and I was very reluctant to tell my therapist with my mum roght next to me. So I asked my mum to gave some alone time with my therapist, and when I told her, she asked me if I wanted to tell my mum or not. I said yes, and that I wouldn't want her to overreact or anything, and with my experience, it is much much easier and better for your therapist to tell your mum, so that one, of course, your mum knows what is happening and so your community can help you more altogether, and two, when you are not the one telling your mum, you don't experience the guilt, or the pain you worry about from telling your mum and making her sad.
Also, I think you should discuss very openly about your life and how your mum might be making things difficult for you.
After I completely opened up to my therapist, almost the entire burden of bad mental health lifted, because the full mindset of "I need to die, I need to self harm" just leaves.
Also, you shouldn't feel down for breaking your phone, it isn't your fault. People make mistakes, and you simply just accidentally busted it. It isn't a big deal, so no need to overstress
Also, if you need to vent, feel free to DM me, or just talk, I will always be here for you <3
lyric vector
Also, you shouldn't feel down for breaking your phone, it isn't your fault. Peop...
It is my fault tho, for context that phone was really old it was a samsung amp 2, so really old. And I had spotify (some how) but it kept playing without audio when i used my headphones and I got mad and threw it