I've been having daydreams. All of them involve me ending up as a girl in the future. Sh#t like "you go girl!" melts my dead, queer heart. And I've had many moments where I see a girl and think do I want to be with her or be her? And just as many moments where I was girly or wanted to be with them. A specific example being a Nick show with an episode with a segment about an all girls coding thing and I wanted to be in it but 10 year old me had no idea how that'd work out. I vibe with girls a lot hence a sizable portion of my friends are girls. The thing is I've spent my whole life trying to prove I'm still as much of a guy as I was born as. I hated pink and girly things. I still hate pink but not as much. And even if I came out as Trans tomorrow, things are really bad at home and in my country and even then I don't act very feminine. Presentation is a big part of why I'm a femboy, but I still act like a guy despite it. And that'll haunt my future Trans self for a while. And I don't mind not spending my money to get rid of my phallic region. What do?
#Trans?
proven thunder
pliant kettle
It's ok to feel like you want to be a girl and all like whatever feels right for you should be best example I was gender fluid for awhile bc hey I like dressing as a guy and a girl also and it felt right at the time but yes my dad is anti trans so I stopped as soon as he found out and I was terrified so im not gender fluid anymore bc it traumatized me 🥲 but I'd do what's good for you
nocturne parcel
One idea is testing out different pronouns! If your close friends mentioned are supportive of queer people, maybe you could ask them to use she/her pronouns when referring to you for maybe a week or so and then ask yourself “do these pronouns help me feel more like me?” Also, not acting “femininely” does not invalidate you at all! I’m a cis girl but I tend to dress more masculine and act more masculine, but I’m still just as much a girl! While you’re on you self discovery journey, try not to worry about “being feminine enough” to be a girl, because every girl is at least a little bit masc 😄