imagine not having the guts to die and being afraid of it when its the only option
i feel so embarrassed cause i sent a message here saying it was my last message, tried to hang myself, got really scared and started panicking, got my head off the tie.
i wanna od on something cause it isnt "sudden" iykwim and once its done, its done. im tired of being a failure to everyone around me. im gonna try and od on coffee cause apparently you can do that and if that doesnt work ill go to the pharmacy and get myself some paracetamol
#im a coward
wise beacon
raven gyro
imagine not having the guts to die and being afraid of it when its the only opti...
First off. Your lifecis far too valueable to even suggest what you suggested.
Secondly. Don't be embarrassed. It's a great thing you're still living and breathing. If you did die. You'd be hurting the people who loves you the most. Your family and friends will never be the same without you here.
Why are you tired of living? What are the reasons? Best is to talk and vent to somebody who would read/listen. And if that doesn't help, then you find somebody else until you find that person.
wise beacon
First off. Your lifecis far too valueable to even suggest what you suggested.
...
they dont love me. my mom has told me many times that she wish i was never born nd my dad has even gone as far as telling me to drown myself
no one loves me or cares about me anymore
im just a failure wasting resources
raven gyro
We all in this discord love everybody and each other. Come talk to me in my DM's and I'll help you get through this
mortal flume
ey man you good text me bro get through this together we got this! (adhd supportive guy)
vivid current
imagine not having the guts to die and being afraid of it when its the only opti...
You aren’t a coward
It’s a normal reaction created from your brain as a survival mechanism
I just wanted to say that even if this doesn’t help much because it’s just a fact
I hope you get/feel better soon
hybrid moss
Why do they hate you so much? If you don't mind telling ofc
placid inlet
Living another day is a way of resistance and empowerment. Especially to all the people who wishes us harm, that we don't exist, that we're not real...
The world needs you here, fighting. Every day is a battle, but once you go to bed to finish the day, that's already a victory.
You're not wasting oxygen. You're not wasting resources. You are a human being who deserves to live and be loved and safe, just like everybody else does.
The people who hate you are not worthy of your suffering. They are terrible to say they don't want you the way you are. And you shouldn't let them take the joy of life from you.
I'm sure you can find a thread to hold on to in this world. Please be safe and talk to me if you need to!
wise beacon
Why do they hate you so much? If you don't mind telling ofc
they wanted a "perfect" child
im far from that
im lazy, have eczema, have asthma, my grades are bad and i seek help when they hit me which is apparently embarassing to them
hybrid moss
Think you've got any redeeming qualities?
hybrid moss
Living another day is a way of resistance and empowerment. Especially to all the...
That's toxic positivity imo
If you are not going to bother improving yourself, your grades or try becoming less lazy... etc. You might aswell be a waste of resources
Prove your parents wrong and do something with your life
wise beacon
Think you've got any redeeming qualities?
nope
wise beacon
And whose fault you think it is?
mine
wise beacon
How old are you?
14
wise beacon
how hard have you tried to find out why?
i dont want to
past fiber
there might be something you missed because you've only been looking for centain things
vivid current
Or get a summer job
Or might not be able to because of the age
Depending where you’re at
Sorry for butting in
wise beacon
Or might not be able to because of the age
Depending where you’re at
yeah i cant
wise beacon
The best thing you could do is focus on your studies
i literally cant im too lazy
past fiber
i literally cant im too lazy
like I said you should find out why
you might not be lazy
wise beacon
like I said you should find out why
too lazy to do that too xd
hybrid moss
Sorry for butting in
It's okay
past fiber
too lazy to do that too xd
you sure you aren't just tired?
hybrid moss
too lazy to do that too xd
No one can fix you if you don't even want to
wise beacon
you sure you aren't just tired?
if im "just tired" i have been for the past 1 year so it defo wont get better
vivid current
I can't even find a hob 'cause I can't lift and they aren't hiring minors
Me too
I have to wait till my bday in 9 days to turn 16
past fiber
if im "just tired" i have been for the past 1 year so it defo wont get better
having toxic parents could be destroying your mind
vivid current
Agree
wise beacon
No one can fix you if you don't even want to
exactly! thats why im gonna kms
hybrid moss
exactly! thats why im gonna kms
And what then?
wise beacon
And what then?
rest
vivid current
exactly! thats why im gonna kms
Our point is you have to do it yourself
(I suppose)
wise beacon
having toxic parents could be destroying your mind
dont really have a choice do i?
wise beacon
Our point is you have to do it yourself
(I suppose)
ofc im gonna kms myself 😭 no ones gonna help me
past fiber
Our point is you have to do it yourself
(I suppose)
what I think they're trying to say is that you might need to try talking to them about this
vivid current
ofc im gonna kms myself 😭 no ones gonna help me
No? You have to give effort yourself is what I mean
Even if people tried helping you
And did everything
And you don’t care, don’t try
It’s not going to work
That’s just how things are
People are texting here because they want to help
past fiber
ofc im gonna kms myself 😭 no ones gonna help me
you might need to ask them why they expect you to be a [quote unquote] 'perfect child'
at least give it shot
wise beacon
you might need to ask them why they expect you to be a [quote unquote] 'perfect ...
i did
they said they expected me to be one
so i have to be one
lmao
wise beacon
everytime ive had this convo they end it with we're your parents you have to listen to us
past fiber
has there been any topic they've been avoiding?
wise beacon
has there been any topic they've been avoiding?
me being suicidal
wise beacon
because it might be worth asking a least once
ive asked them
even suggested i was gonna kms
ive tried to indirectly show them my sh scars
they just say im a coward
wise beacon
do you have any friends you trust?
nope
i get bullied at school
past fiber
I guess all I can say is that you might need to gather some supplies and run
find somewhere else to go for the time being
away from them
BTW do you have any relatives?
you also might need to call the cops at least once if you parents are this bad
wise beacon
dying is easier
past fiber
dying is easier
but staying alive could be worth it
hybrid moss
I guess all I can say is that you might need to gather some supplies and run
Bruv is too lazy to live
You think he's gonna have enough will to survive outside?
past fiber
You think he's gonna have enough will to survive outside?
IDK
but it could be the only option they have
they at least won't have their parents to contend with though
past fiber
nope
i get bullied at school
if it helps I could add you to my DMs
wise beacon
but staying alive could be worth it
what for? ill always be lazy
raven gyro
what for? ill always be lazy
Can always be changed. But you need something to motivate you
pulsar musk
Honestly I feel the same as this person
hybrid moss
Can always be changed. But you need something to motivate you
Motivation will come, but it must catch you working
placid inlet
If you are not going to bother improving yourself, your grades or try becoming l...
That's not what I meant at all... People need to put in the work, but before that they need to find some sort of anchor that motivates them to keep fighting
placid inlet
what for? ill always be lazy
You don't sound like you want to die. You just don't want to feel the burden existing, which is a real thing.
You posted this because you wanted to find a way out that wasn't simply dying.
I hope you understand that the only person who can help you is yourself