plain fiber
Sexuality was always a endless hole for my identity. That was, until I found gray-asexuality.
Being in a fog (aka gray) has been striking a lighting of both insecurity and certainty, as if I found my way of life, but it's a wrong one.
I've always felt ashamed of my feelings and what I identified as. In my mind, if I wasn't in a "normal" or "popular" spectrum like gay, straight or bi, I was faking. I can't explain the feeling. It's this... shame. This blame. As if I was wrong for feeling the way I do.
I dated girls twice in my past, both times ended up in fights with my mother due to my lack of trust in her. She is open minded, but she (or the people around me) would never accept my true feelings about my sexuality.
And with all that, I decided to never come out. I'll simply live my life, play it cool, and if I date someone of my gender again, I'll just introduce her like nothing happened.
For some people, coming out is a big experience, of which I decided it wasn't for me.
SEXUALITY IS A SPECTRUM PEOPLE!!!
(at least for me lmao)
slim shadow