#Bad news about the girl.

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If you saw my last post, before my silly self deleted it for like no reason, you’d know I’m talking to a girl I’m really interested in.

Well, bad news. Her dad is like, incredibly strict. More strict than I thought.

He messaged me through her number while she was gone, mad at me just because I call her by a nickname SHE asked me to call her.

He told me, after all the time I’ve spent helping his daughter (which btw he knows about,) that calling her the nickname “Isn’t supportive in (his) eyes,” and “She’s confused enough, she doesn’t need you calling her a name that isn’t hers.”

As far as I know, she’s not trans or anything, she just wants to be called a nickname.

So yeah. Even if she did love me back, which is unlikely, she would never be allowed to date me because of this stupid fucking dad.

Every single time I am interested in someone, something comes up. They can’t date me for X reason, they don’t love me, they date me then leave me immediately…

I don’t understand. I feel like I’m doing nothing wrong, I’m being myself (myself isn’t by any means “weird” or unattractive according to other people), I’m friends with them for ages before I adk or even develop feelings.

I just don’t get it. I’m either unlucky, or there’s something just wrong with me that nobody wants to tell me and I can’t figure out.

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I don’t get it man, I don’t. I literally just want to feel loved and appreciated in a romantic way (I have all the love I need from my parents so I don’t understand why I’m like this)

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This shit is the main reason I’m even depressed or upset half the time, I just feel like I’m not good enough. Honestly I might not be. I just feel like absolute shit.

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But nobody will see this shit anyways, there’s more pressing shit In here. I just needed to say it. I really don’t even care if anyone replies, or at least that’s what I tell myself. I feel invisible. Nobody ever sees me when I’m down, openly down.

Nobody really cares irl when I’m upset. They never ask if I’m okay, the only one who does is her. She just has stupid fucking parents.

next herald
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Well I'd care if ur upset

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Also

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If their dad doesent let you date THAT girl then there's plenty of fish in the sea

shadow gazelle
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Someday you will find someone, someone who will love you and won't let anything get in your way

faint heart
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But you haven’t seen me irl LOL

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Or know my irl reputation, or anything like that

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I have one chance every like 2 years bro stg

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I’m sorry I’m negative I’m just so fed up with being alone :/

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And that’s no reason to snap at you so I’m sorry my bad

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Wasn’t a snap but still

faint heart
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Kinda feels hopeless atp imma be so honest

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And yes I realize o have flaws, I try to fix them and nobody sees that either

shadow gazelle
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I may not know what you look like, but I have experienced feeling unloved romantically. All I'd say is although having a romantic partner sounds like a dream, just remember how many people love you platonically. Stay friends with her, even if you can't date her you can still be her friend and talk to her

faint heart
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They just see the flaws I used to have and brush me off

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I used to be so content having friends, I questioned what the point of being with someone even was in the first place

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Had one chance and that changed it, and then every chance after that I’ve fucked up

shadow gazelle
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I don't wanna sound like rude or anything, but what do you think would be different between a really close friend, and an actual partner?

faint heart
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I’m like, I think the term is “touch starved” or whatever (cringe ass chronic online term ik)

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But yeah I need physical affection it feels like to be happy atp and I don’t get it

shadow gazelle
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Hmm, if you can't find a romantic partner, I think you should see if any of your IRL friends feel similarly(I'm in my fg alot of them did so they had weekly cuddle puddles)
If some of your friends feel the same way maybe you guys could hang out once in a while and just hang out like hug or lay together idk

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Sry I kinda suck at this

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faint heart
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Something people do here, that’s looked down at

shadow gazelle
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That's weird tbh, I feel like hugging friends should be normalized

faint heart
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I’m in the states but a really shit state tbh

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I mean shit town too, some places here are fine but not my town

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But yeah I’d get jumped like twice as much as I already do

shadow gazelle
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I don't think that's fair on anyone, people need to be able to show affection

faint heart
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Also with guys it’s just a lot different idk how to explain it

shadow gazelle
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But lowkey I'd get jumped too

faint heart
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Idk

shadow gazelle
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Hmm, yea I feel like a lot of guys I know either don't feel like that, or hide it

faint heart
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I realize how stupid this is, like yeah I could find a way to feel happy if I actually wanted to but atp idk if i do or if i want an excuse for my sadness when there really isn’t a reason 🤷‍♂️

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Story for a diff day tho tbh

shadow gazelle
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Honestly it isn't stupid, wanting a girlfriend is low-key relatable

faint heart
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Yeah

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I get jealous of my friends but they go through like 3 a year and I could never

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I don’t want that either so idk why I’m jealous

shadow gazelle
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But also it isn't your fault, you deserve someone to love you for who you are no matter what, you deserve a partner that will stay with you

faint heart
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Nobody agrees with that anymore

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Not where I’m at, ig

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Cuz like idk nobody likes me here

shadow gazelle
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I feel like jealousy happens even if that's not exactly what you want, like seeing 2 people so happy together can hurt when you want that happiness so bad but can never get it

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And that’s not paranoia that’s just true, I genuinely get bullied by like 90% of the kids in my town

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The other 10% tolerate but don’t interact

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I mean yes this girl is here and yes I have like 2 friends

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Or did, they moved schools :/

shadow gazelle
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Oh, well I just wanna say that people here care Abt you, we may not know you irl but you sound like a really sweet and caring person that deserves the world and more

faint heart
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Yeah I was so excited for this summer just to learn all of my friends moved, then never hung out like they promised (even just playing games), and ended up doing absolutely nothing

faint heart
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I appreciate you and everyone else, it’s just that I’m insatiable and have some self-destructive desire to have what I don’t

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Which is like I’ve said love 🤷‍♂️

shadow gazelle
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Yo if I met you I'd give you the biggest hug

faint heart
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My mom and everyone else is like, “yeah you have a year left of school (2 if you count this one cuz it hasn’t started yet), then college is great!” But college won’t be great

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shadow gazelle
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Do you know where you are gonna go for college?

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Just in general so thank you

shadow gazelle
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If you go to a college in a different town that's more accepting, it might be better but idk

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Also you'll meet new people

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Yeah I got adopted by a football player this year and then he left 😭 I’m so cooked

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(I’m 16 and have had depressive symptoms since like 10-11? Other stuff earlier.)

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I go to junior next year which is cool.

Sorry that’s off topic, I just talk sometimes

shadow gazelle
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Well, first off that football player sounds cool. And also I think you should focus on finding people that seem nice, whether guys or girls(I feel like most people only have same gender friends) and just focus on making a small group. Also if you make 1 friend, then you can probably meet their friends and join their friend group

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Yeah he was awesome

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He was a goof at heart LOL

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Gender wise 🤷‍♂️

shadow gazelle
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Awww

faint heart
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But yeah I just have a hard time finding that first friend

shadow gazelle
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You’ll feel young every year of it compared to the next year

shadow gazelle
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Lmao

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Heh... I'm low-key scared but that's okay

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Hell I’ve heard from seniors that they feel old then they go to college and are a freshman at 18 next to 23 year olds

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shadow gazelle
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Anyway tho, the first friend might take a little while, but once you get one, you can build from there

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Yeah hopefullyo

shadow gazelle
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I still have a lunch friend group but they’re younger and I like friends in my class (none of them are)

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shadow gazelle
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I appreciate that a lot, and I also believe in you, you are such a kind person, I feel like you'll find friends in your classes whether it takes a few days or a few months(hopefully the first one)

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Sorry just saw YOUR post and typed on its

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shadow gazelle
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Lol it's okay

potent light
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yo bro u gotta be kind to her