topaz topaz
I know I'm not active in this server, but I just need to put this somewhere before it eats me alive.
So I always feel like a charity case, like I'm always the friend that doesn't have the stuff and always needs something. Like a school dance is coming up? I don't have a dress and don't have time to go get one. I need something for camp? I don't have it and don't get enough warning to go buy it. I also feel like the only reason people are friends with me is because they feel bad for me. The only reason I'm in any server with my friends is either I made it, or was invited bc of a different reason(ex: I was shit talked and they wanted to make a server without those toxic people) and all my 'friends' seem so much happier with other people. There's only one friend I think actually likes me and we don't talk much since summer started. And even talking in here makes me feel like shit because other people need it more, like all the different vents I've read compared to mine seems so much more important. I feel like if anyone answers it would just be because they feel bad for me and some may say that isn't true, but none of you know me or have ever talked to me, so I know that's the only reason you'd answer
Sorry for so many words
cobalt fog