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I’ve been talking to this girl for about a year.
She’s nice. She’s very pretty. I like her.
She’s not the best mental health wise. She’s up and down, but I don’t mind. I love her. I don’t know if she does though, because she doesn’t say much. I know her in person, we go to school together, but we talk through text.
I really like her. I realized this the other day, we were talking and she left for a bit and I missed her a LOT. I had those butterflies, yknow?
There’s so many things in the way. Her parents are strict and religious, so I don’t know if she’d be allowed to date. They definitely like me; when she ended up in a bad spot, I helped her out and they messaged me through her number thanking me for being such a good friend. I still don’t think she’s allowed to date though, but I’m not sure.
I just have felt so lonely the last few years and have wanted to feel loved romantically, but I’m incredibly unpopular and disliked by most people in my school and have nowhere else to meet people.
I just really, really like her. She just doesn’t talk to me, she says 1-2 word replies, rarely seems excited. I’ve helped her, but she still doesn’t seem interested in what I have to say. That might be anxiety though, since she’s always shy.
I want to tell her how I feel, but all these factors, plus my anxiety telling me if she says no it’ll be over… I just don’t know how. I want to, I really do. I want to be able to to on dates, treat her to nice things, be able to feel loved, cherished and appreciated. I just don’t feel that very often, even though my parents are great and love me very much.
All that, just to say that honestly I need help on how I’d even go about it, or if it’s a good idea at all.
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