Family Rant

[lean turtle]

I have social anxiety. I developed it when I was very young (though it is not genetic). Because of that fact, my father is super disrespectful (I think that’s the word) to my MH. I have a specific quote that is just engraved into my brain. “When you were young, you were a social butterfly. You were open to talk to anyone and everyone. I don’t know where my baby girl went. Now your just an empty shell of an angsty teenager” or one of my favorite questions regarding my depression “what reason do you have to be depressed?” Mind you my depression is generational from my DADS SIDE. Which is very frustrating, and this is all just from my father. My younger sister has an effect on my self esteem. She will be constantly be looking at me like I just crawled out of a dumpster and have showered in days. I like expressing my self through my clothing, expensive things at that. She will always find something to turn negative and make me feel self conscious. All of my family members do not understand autism. I hate fireworks, they say to grow a back bone and force me to leave my headphone at home and (my sister specifically) laugh at me throughout the firework show for covering my ears. I am very picky with my textures of food, and they all constantly order/buy my comfort foods when complaining that I am spending their money on food. (Which by the way, I eat generally cheap things, I always just prices before asking for food.) I am just writing this to get it off my chest.

[idle fjord]

I’m sorry, this is awful. If you would like someone to talk to, my DMs are open, and I’ll respond when I can.

[lean turtle]

Thanks for the offer, but I don’t usually share personal info one on one. I will most likely just rant every once in a while to my bestie or edit this. Thanks once again for the offer. :))