[TW:Suicide]

[floral wasp]

Why do I hate myself so much.
I keep on wanting to die but every time I try I just can’t bring myself to do it because of my girlfriend or I attempt and fail.
I really hate myself
Why should exist
Why me.

[pine cliff]

better question

why shouldnt you exist

[floral wasp]

I get called slurs almost daily
My brother is homophobic + transphobic
I keep doubting if I treat my girlfriend well enough
Etc.

[pine cliff]

the slurs arent your fault, you didnt do anything to deserve to be called them

that does not mean you shouldnt exist

same with your brother, hes the shitty person and not you

and if youre doubting how well you treat your gf then chances are youre already treating her well

[south briar]

family is evidently not an excuse for unconditional love

[pine cliff]

yes

[pine cliff]

if you werent treating her well she likely wouldve told you herself

[dim bronze]

So what if your brothers a homophob!
Your parents and your girlfriend love and support you
Your girlfriend loves you and you treat her amazingly

[floral wasp]

The fact I have to deal with my brother every day makes me want to die. He keeps on calling me slurs and beating me up I just can’t take it anymore.

I’m sorry for any trouble I’ve created

[dim bronze]

Why don’t you try staying near your parents whenever your brother tries to attack you?

[floral wasp]

I can’t, my brother specifically attacks me when I’m alone in my room, since my room is pretty far from the living room where my parents usually are, they can’t hear me screaming

• I sound proofed my door a while ago

[dim bronze]

Tell your brother that he’s a fucking asshole and say if he can’t accept you for who you are then he should go leave the house

[floral wasp]

He wouldn’t give a shit, if anything, I’m getting beaten even worse by my brother

[dim bronze]

Oh, ask if he loves you

Say if I was not trans, would you love me?

[floral wasp]

I can’t ask him now

I’m sorry for the trouble I’ve caused, bye…

[weak blade]

You haven't caused any trouble

[dim bronze]

What trouble if you cause you’ve done nothing

[pine cliff]

learn self-defense. id recommend something like taekwondo or brazilian jujutsu because you can pin people down pretty easily with those

[floral wasp]

Both me and my brother do taekwondo, he easily takes me down

I can’t take his bs any longer

Bye….

[dim bronze]

No

Wait don't leave

[floral wasp]

Why shouldn’t I?

[dim bronze]

Because a lot if people care

And you wouldnt wanna leave you girlfriend would you

[floral wasp]

I know but I just can’t live like this anymore.
I can’t even trust my own brother

[dim bronze]

well, your brother sucks

[pine cliff]

next time he tries to beat you up take a heavy object and try to bludgeon him with it or take a sharp object or use any furniture as defence

take a stool or something and throw it at him

blind him with clothing, wrap it around him

[floral wasp]

I… don’t want to kill my brother

[pine cliff]

enough to incapacitate him

[pine cliff]

better with a blanket actually

[floral wasp]

I know but I can’t get rid of him, only myself

[dim bronze]

Just ask for your brother dislikes you

when we know it’s because you’re trans you have to see why and what have you physically done other than going against what he believes

[floral wasp]

I asked him and he said what I expected him to say

[dim bronze]

Which is?

[floral wasp]

Because I’m trans and bi

[dim bronze]

You can say I’m still your sibling

[floral wasp]

I got punched in the face when I told him that before

[pine cliff]

use chairs and tables to block his path, throw water at him, make the ground slippery, in general disorient him and then incapacitate him

[floral wasp]

I’m too scared to do that

[pine cliff]

at this point its your best chance

the chairs go a long way trust me

[dim bronze]

Yeah, you should probably just throw a chair at him. I agree.

[pine cliff]

a chair is enough to disorient anyone

since hes probably never going to back off no point in going easy on him

[floral wasp]

What if I kill him? I don’t want to do that, just because he beats me up because I’m trans doesn’t mean he isn’t my brother

[dim bronze]

Smack him with a chair and then flip them off whenever he’s passed out go lay in bed and tuck them up and then lock him in his room. Feed him twice a day.

[pine cliff]

a chair cant kill someone

[pine cliff]

thats. a little much

[floral wasp]

Warcrime 101

[dim bronze]

I have other ways to if you need more

[floral wasp]

Yes, yes it can, I know from personal experience

Jk

But still

[dim bronze]

XD

[floral wasp]

I don’t want to seriously injure my brother

[pine cliff]

i mean he already seriously injures you

[floral wasp]

Yeah but I can’t really bring myself to do it

I’m probably gonna go to sleep door locked for now

[pine cliff]

set up a trap or something

[dim bronze]

Oki

[floral wasp]

Ok, I might be fighting like a god damn soldier when it comes to people other than my brother, but I’m not that insane

[pine cliff]

do it

like tom and jerry style

if you dont wanna throwna chair at him get a fishing net

[pine cliff]

THEN KEEP IT LOCKED AT ALL TIMES

cant get to you if he literally cant get to you

[floral wasp]

Bye…

[dim bronze]

Stay with us

Trust me, no one wants you to die

[floral wasp]

Longest I can stay is a few more hours at max

[dim bronze]

Tell your parents

[pine cliff]

please dont die

[floral wasp]

I just got off a call with my girlfriend

[pine cliff]

are you ok

[floral wasp]

Mentally, no

But on the call, she heard me crying

And she asked me what’s wrong

And I didn’t want to worry her

But eventually I told her

[pine cliff]

partners are meant to worry about you its fine

[floral wasp]

I know but

She responded with something that made me regret attempting suicide

[pine cliff]

do you mind telling what she said

[floral wasp]

She said, “Don’t do it, stay there, I’m coming to your house with you favorite box of chocolate and you can vent when I’m there, untill then, don’t do anything stupid.”

I don’t deserve her

[dim bronze]

W gf

[pine cliff]

that is a good thing

[floral wasp]

She is about to arrive at my house any second now

[dim bronze]

Yay

[floral wasp]

Good thing my brother and parents are sleeping rn

[dim bronze]

Have fun

AND REMEMBER to talk to her she'll listen

I promise

[floral wasp]

She just left my house

[dim bronze]

Sad

[floral wasp]

Yeah, sadly

[dim bronze]

How did it go?

[floral wasp]

as she got to my house she came to hug me immediately just because I was safe (yes I did fall because she literally sprinted to me lol)

Then she asked me what was wrong

So I told her my situation and she just did the most jaw dropping thing ever

She grabbed anything I could use to theoretically hurt myself with and chucked it out my window

Like I said I do not deserve her

[dim bronze]

BASED

THAT'S AN AMAZING GF

[dim bronze]

yes, you do. You’re amazing too.

[floral wasp]

Wait till you hear this, as soon as she removed the things I could theoretically use to hurt myself, she immediately tackled me again just to hug me and for her to tell me why I shouldn’t die

I love her so much
If me and her ever broke up, I would literally die

[dim bronze]

I’m happy you found someone that loves you so much

[floral wasp]

I’m probably going to stop talking about her for now

Anyway yall gn