So numb... [[TW: $H, su!cid3(??), £D(??)]]

[obtuse birch]

I don't know what's going on but I'm definitely at an all-time low right now. I listen to music to isolate myself from the world, and my friends aren't texting or calling me as much as they normally would. Recently, I had a dream where I literally said I was gonna kms. I'm always hungry and when I do eat, I feel so guilty afterwards. I feel so lonely and upset, I want to cry but it feels like I can't. I've asked my mum for therapy and she said she'll see what she can do, but I really need help right now.

Thank you SO much for taking the time to read all of this.

[lament mica]

have you talked to your mom about how you’re feeling?

[obtuse birch]

I already told her when I thought I had d!s0rder3d eat1ng, she said I look okay and I shouldn't worry, but I still feel that guilt. But, I haven't told her that I $H or had $u!cid@L thoughts because y'know... what it is.

[lament mica]

do you think she’d be helpful if you did tell her?

she might prioritize getting you help if she knows how much you REALLY are struggling

[obtuse birch]

Idk...

[tawny delta]

She might do that and I'm saying from experience.

[obtuse birch]

Whenever I feel like actually telling her, I get too anxious..

[tawny delta]

I feel you, you should honestly try a little harder, or write it on some piece of paper and have it in your room.

Or you can give it to her.

[obtuse birch]

Okay, I can try to do that.

[tawny delta]

Good. I hope you get better.

[obtuse birch]

Hold up, I forgot to mention that she found an old vent book of mine.

[tawny delta]

Oh. And she did nothing?

[obtuse birch]

First page was rly obvious that I did $H

[obtuse birch]

Idk bc I don't remember when she found it but it was prob a year ago.

[tawny delta]

Alright. I honestly suggest doing the paper method and writing that you'd wish she did something about it.

I've gtg good luck to you. Just please, try the method.

[obtuse birch]

Okay, I'll try to update.

Take care ❤️