I am a gender non-conforming transgender man (he/they) and ever since I've moved into this couples shelter with my girlfriend (trans woman), I've felt like I had to put on a masculine front in front of other people in the shelter, especially since I'm literally the only trans man in the shelter. Every time I see cisgender men break gender stereotypes, I feel envious because they just feel like what I'm actually meant to be, but I know when I identify as a trans man and wear a dress and makeup, to other people, I look like a woman and it sucks. I know it's not about what other people think of me, but I feel like there's this instinct inside of me saying that if I don't act masculine enough, nobody will think I'm trans so I have to act masculine. There's also this asshole couple in the shelter I'm in who just started to purposefully misgender me and my girlfriend casually after figuring it out, and it's not like accidentally using the wrong pronouns or anything, but they we're referring to me as a 'young lady' and my girlfriend as a 'young man' and it's actively making everything I feel about myself worse. Sorta like "I wish I could pass gradually in front of this old couple so when they call me a 'young lady' again, someone new would come into this program and look at them like they got shit on their faces." I know this isn't worth my time, but I just wish I was born male so I could feel right.
#I've been feeling dysphoric ever since I moved to this homeless shelter...
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If u want to be more masculine why don't you