steady relic
My story isn't as important as others, but I wanna get it off of my chest without disturbing my friends and family.
My parents are very supportive of me being a trans boy, but they're extremely hesitant about letting me go on testosterone or letting me wear a binder. My parents are worried about the binder because it could potentially cause physical damage down the line (which is fair), and my dad's worried about T because "he doesn't want to make such an important decision for me". I understand where they're both coming from, but it just sucks because I see other trans guys my age passing and living like dumb teen boys. I'm not allowed to go on testosterone until I'm 18, and it hurts because I just have to accept the fact that people will see me as an ugly girl throughout the rest of my childhood. My face is too soft, my body's too chubby, my hair's too long, I'm short, I'm not athletic, and my voice isn't exactly masculine. I don't know, I just wanna find people who don't have to constantly remember that I'm a boy and not some confused androgynous teen. I want people to know immediately without having to force it, but I can't do that for the next three years. I just hope that I can get a therapist who could possibly convince them that I NEED testosterone. Without it, I just feel... Ugly, I guess. I already look average/androgynous, but I need T to REALLY sell that I'm a boy (and hopefully a handsome one lol) . Idk, maybe I'm just over dramatic or something.
Anyways, thanks for listening to me yap. I know this story looks stupid compared to others, but I appreciate that you decided to check up on me. I highly respect you for that.
honest hawk