#TW: S__cide.

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void dagger
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I can't do this anymore, I know I've said it befure. And I'll say it again. I'm fed up with life. I can't go a second without my parents getting on my case about the littlest things! "Oh! You sit too girly, that's the same as using the middle finger". I mean seriously! If they found out I was genderfluid and bi? I might as well get shot in the head by a rifle! I can't stand them! They make me so mad and I have to live with them 24/7... with the constant nagging and the ongoing paranoia and fear that if I slip up, I'm screwed. My parents are heavily strict Christians and I hate it... I've had some random dude walk up to "pray the gay away"! At work, I got yelled at fur dropping a nickel! My friends befure have threatened to take their own life and to SH... and I can't... all of this is just overwhelming.. And then I get mood swings which make things worse.. because one moment, I'm doing okay.. and the next, the voices in my head grow so loud that music won't help.. I don't know what to do but just end it all... I really don't know..

toxic kelp
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i don't know what you can do but i only know one thing

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ending it all is the worst option

void dagger
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How?

toxic kelp
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life is the most precious thing to a human. i know for a fact someone out there cares for your, someone wants you to succeed. even if you don't know it, there is someone you can talk to

astral magnet
toxic kelp
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same here

limpid lichen
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If you want a friend or someone to talk to, my dm’s are open

void dagger
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I'm just trapping them into a web.

toxic kelp
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they care about you

toxic kelp
void dagger
toxic kelp
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you are not hurting them. others are making you think that, but you're not

toxic kelp
astral magnet
void dagger
astral magnet
toxic kelp
void dagger
toxic kelp
void dagger
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I don't believe it.

toxic kelp
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im proof

sterile mist
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I feel sorry for you in this situation.... But ending it all is the last thing you should think of.

void dagger
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I mean.. I already have a razour, rope and lighter. Why not do it?

toxic kelp
sterile mist
# void dagger Why?

Because, even though life might be shitty right now, if you try to progress through it and talk to the right people, you might make your life better. Therapy or seeking for groups can help. I know you can do it

void dagger
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toxic kelp
void dagger
toxic kelp
void dagger
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It's very hard to trust people that much.

toxic kelp
void dagger
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No.. not really?

sterile mist
void dagger
lilac tapir
void dagger
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Burning myself doesn't lead to immediate death if I extinguish the flames.

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That is not necessarily "killing myself".

sterile mist
void dagger
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So?

hushed lantern
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Wait. All of our DMs are open I’m pretty sure. You don’t have to do this. I care. And so does everyone else that has responded to this message. Please

toxic kelp
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yeah im here

void dagger
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There, I waited.

sterile mist
toxic kelp
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i care

void dagger
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I feel bad fur all of you then.

toxic kelp
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why?

void dagger
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Because I may or may not be bleeding.

sterile mist
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.........

limpid lichen
void dagger
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Does me using a razour to cut myself count as "on purrpose"?

toxic kelp
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yes

limpid lichen
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Was the razor clean?

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maybe wash the wound and clean it

void dagger
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I mean.. I've used it befure. So it has some blood on it.

limpid lichen
void dagger
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Why?

limpid lichen
void dagger
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But I want it to get infected.

toxic kelp
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sorry if this is a terrible question but have you called 988 or some other countries version of it

limpid lichen
void dagger
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Okay, I'm fine with that.

sterile mist
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Calling 988 might help

lavish flame
limpid lichen
void dagger
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Why?

limpid lichen
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just do it

lavish flame
sterile mist
limpid lichen
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void dagger
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toxic kelp
# void dagger Why?

Listen to me. You will make it. no matter what you think, It gets better. Life always gets better at some point

sterile mist
toxic kelp
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@void dagger are you there?

void dagger
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It hasn't gotten better.

toxic kelp
sterile mist
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Please. We do care

lilac tapir
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we all do care about you pls dont leave

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@void dagger are you here?

void dagger
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Why do any of y'all care about me?

toxic kelp
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we don't need a reason

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we just do

sterile mist
void dagger
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There is always a reason.

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That is something I've learned.

toxic kelp
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No there isn't

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we don't have alterior motive

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we don't have reasonw

sterile mist
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Sometimes there isn't a reason

void dagger
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Even if it may be unknown or not at the top of your head. There is always a reason.

toxic kelp
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we just do

toxic kelp
void dagger
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I asked GPT.

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Yes—people always have reasons for doing things, even if those reasons aren’t obvious, logical, or good.

That doesn’t mean the reasons are always conscious or well-understood by the person themselves. Motivations can be:

Emotional – Acting out of fear, love, jealousy, anger, etc.

Psychological – Driven by habits, trauma, past experiences, or unmet needs.

Practical – Trying to solve a problem, get something done, or avoid discomfort.

Social – Wanting approval, avoiding shame, fitting in.

Subconscious – Influenced by things they haven’t examined or realized yet.

Sometimes people say “I don’t know why I did that,” and they mean it. But if you dig deep enough, there’s always something—some fear, desire, belief, impulse, or context—that nudged them toward that action.

Did you have a specific situation in mind? I can help dig into it with you.

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See?

lilac tapir
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chat gpt is still learning ;-;

toxic kelp
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well then im acting out of the human instinct to love another

void dagger
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Welp, I'ma go. Peace y'all. I'll update you tomorrow. Cough If I'm not dead cough

sterile mist
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......ok then

toxic kelp
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another day my friend

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survive

sterile mist
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Feel better (maybe?)

limpid lichen
high flume
# void dagger Even if it may be unknown or not at the top of your head. There is always a reas...

What if the reason is being kind... what if they just want to spread good that the world lacks sometimes. There's no particular want they have other than showing people the world can be scary but you can have others around you to help. I sure as heck do not seek anything but seeing others happier when I talk in these posts, I do not use my kindness for any reason other than me wanting to help the community which has grown and shaped me. Just know I do not know who you are, nor can I feel a fraction of your pain. But I care about you, why? Because you matter, even if you live even a couple more days. You are worth the time and energy to try and save. Why? There doesn't need to be an answer, but the answer lies within myself, and that's because I want others to not go through want I have been through and continue to go through. My friend if you have read this far, just know. We care, maybe not all of us, but at least me. It will take time but you can see a better future, just get a strong foundation of friends, and to me it seems you have a lot of willing participants to be your friend and support!

void dagger
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I'm still standing, y'all.. a few cuts, but alive.

limpid lichen
void dagger
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No. :(
I wanted to aim a firework at my head.

toxic kelp
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oh

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but are you doing good?

high flume
toxic kelp
toxic kelp
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@void dagger are you doing okay?

obtuse cradle
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Your life may be in a rough place right now, but know that for each rough day, there will be a better one. It’s the way of things. As someone who was once in a similar situation, trust me when I say that it will get better.

lilac tapir
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Hey @void dagger how are you doing?

idle sparrow
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@void dagger are you still there? If so, are you okay?

limpid lichen
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@void dagger how are you doing?

void dagger
void dagger
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The only thing getting crap off my mind is work.

obtuse cradle
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Glad you’re still here, friend.

toxic kelp
void dagger
obtuse cradle
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It feels like that sometimes. Dw tho, life will stop being bad eventually.

void dagger
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Life will never stop being "bad". As there will always be negative things that will happen everyday throughout your life.

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The time it will stop being bad is when you pass away.

obtuse cradle
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Wrong. Even in a world of pain there are still wonderful things. Art, music, friends (online or in person), and so much more.

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If you die, than you can’t come back. But if you resist the pains, you’ll find things do get better.

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I know from experience.