dont call yourself that :( theres light at the end of the tunnel, virtual hugs sending asap don't cry before ya make me cry, for once my dms are open if you wanna talk about it. I hope it works, i want to help you stop ||cvtt1n9|| youeself and help you love yourself. I may not respond immediately, but i will respond, keep hoping and love yourself, talk to me about whatever you want in dms as this breaks my heart so much. i really hope good wishes on you and i really really hope you get better one day and get the life you deserve, a happy, safe and loving life. dont give up, you have lots of life left to live. I hope you reed this and feel even a bit better.
Also, do you have anyone to talk to about this stuff? I can help you and give you advise to help you make real friends if you want, (despite having social problems myself).