Is there anyone that actually? Genuinely enjoys life?

[errant flume]

I hate ts and I hate everyone who says it'll get better
No it fucking won't
I'll always be short, always have asthma, always have eczema, always procrastinate, always hate myself and always be a day away from killing myself for good
I'm actually tired sorry for the rant

[plain palm]

Yes, sometimes I do. Everybody has problems, but for me it was finding things that are fun, which made me forget my problems for a while. I have asthma too, but after about 2-3 years of doing absolutely no sports (except in pe lessons), I hopped on my bicycle and to my surprise it was fun, really fun. I had to stop every 2 minutes bc I couldn't breathe, but I was enjoying it. And then I started cycling with friends and that made me enjoy it even more. Imo you just need to find something that makes you happy, that makes you forget about problems. And as soon as you found that, just do it whenever you feel down or have negative feelings. I, for example, had a fight with my parents the other day and then went somethere calm and peaceful with my bicycle. I was there for probably 2-3h, called some friends, who sadly couldn't come bc it was already in the middle of the night, but just talking to them made me feel much better, on top of that I had fun even going there, even tho it was exhausting, it helped. A lot. So just try to find something fun (best case would be something that's not dangerous) and do it with friends and people you trust and/or when you're feeling down. We have a limited time on earth, so try to enjoy it while it lasts:)

[errant flume]

I don't want to be happy tbh
I just want to be dead

[fiery horizon]

I find joy in hating people on the internet for fun, if you're depressed just eat something sweet or get someone to listen to your problems, or just hangout with someone. Really no one cares about you or me, and i dunno, but i find peace in that, its freedom for me.

Hope it gets better for you

[plain palm]

Hating people on the internet can be fun, but you shouldn't do it too much. Hate is bad, especially if you mean it. It can cause serious damage to a person. Eating to cope depression isn't a good idea either because then you'll eat too much at some point. But hanging out with someone and getting someone to listen are great ideas. Also: People care about both of you. At least I care, because I care about every human being.

[fiery horizon]

such altruistic and humanistic mindset is great, but i think such mindset would literally burn you out mentally and emotionally. Sometimes, i think, to really enjoy life to the fullest you gotta be a dick, at least cuz its fun.

[errant flume]

It's cause of people like you that I wanna kms

[plain palm]

As a person with this mindset, no way. Why tf would you be a dick if you can be nice? I mean yeah, fine, if it doesn't hurt anyone, but as soon as it harms someone, it's nothing to be proud of and especially nothing to tell others to do. Because psychological harm can be worse than physical

[errant flume]

Fuck bullies

[plain palm]

fr

[plain palm]

fr

What's positive in bullying? Like genuinly? Because you feel better? That's literally just selfish

Feeling better shouldn't cost anybody anything. And you're making it cost peoples health

That's right, I didn't. Because I'm not a selfish and narcissistic

So please stop with this behaviour

[plain palm]

But please don't do that. I care about you

[errant flume]

It's tempting to die yk

I have an easy and painless way out(thanks chat gpt)

I can live life and it might get better

And will probably get bad again after that

Or I can just kms and not live through this

[plain palm]

But between the bad days, are good ones

[errant flume]

Exactly my point

[plain palm]

And the good day are the ones that you'll want

[errant flume]

It's a gamble

[errant flume]

If I die I won't have to live thought the bad ones

And wknt care about the good ones

[plain palm]

But then you won't live through the good ones

[plain palm]

But the good ones are fun. And fun is something you'll want, no?

[errant flume]

I'll be dead Idc

[plain palm]

But other people would care

[errant flume]

I really wish I could just skip all the bad days

[errant flume]

They wont

[plain palm]

That'd be great, yeah, sadly not possible

[plain palm]

I know I would. And I'm sure other people would too

[errant flume]

There's like 3 people who I know will miss me and all of them are my online friends

No one likes to approach me irl because of how fucking ugly I am

[errant flume]

You wouldn't even realize

[plain palm]

Those 3 people are still going to have a bad days then, if they take the same as you, they'll kts too, which would in the end end up to everybody dying, I don't think that's the best way to go

[plain palm]

I would. No answers would be pretty obvious

[errant flume]

They defo won't care enough

They'll be sad for a few days

Besides I've already told them that I might die soon

[plain palm]

You don't know that

[errant flume]

I do

[plain palm]

Losing someone is always worse than people think

[plain palm]

How?

[errant flume]

Not if you don't care about that person

[errant flume]

They aren't very close to me

[plain palm]

Still. And I care about you. Like I said

[errant flume]

How? We don't even know each other.

[plain palm]

Doesn't matter. If I'd find out that someone kts that I know, I'd be sad no matter how close I am to the person. And not only for a few days, but rather months and years

[plain palm]

But I care about everyone. Every human being.

[errant flume]

I've told them I might die soon and they said "took you long enough"

[plain palm]

Maybe they think you were kidding

[errant flume]

You don't know every human being
Someone is probably gonna kts in the next 60secs and you can't even do anything about it

[errant flume]

I did say /srs

So they knew I wasnt

[plain palm]

I know, but I can't do anything against that. If I know that I could've done something against it, which is the case right now, right here, then I do care, no matter who the human is

[plain palm]

Then you shouldn't call them friends, honestly

[errant flume]

Ok then, I won't
I don't have any friends now lol

I'm gonna head to the pharmacy and get the drug

[plain palm]

Please don't

[plain palm]

You have me:)

[errant flume]

I'll keep it with me dw
It's just if I wanna kms I can right then and I don't have to wait

[errant flume]

You prolly will not be after yo get to know me better

I'm a horrible human being and a waste of resources

[plain palm]

Why? You seem like a good person

[plain palm]

I don't believe that

[errant flume]

I'm not

[plain palm]

If you put alcohol next to a one-day-clean alcoholic, what do you think will happen? Would you let him?

[plain palm]

Then change that and become one. It's never to late for that

[errant flume]

Idc it's his life

[errant flume]

I can't

[plain palm]

Why not?

[plain palm]

Only two options here: Would you let him: Yes or no?

[errant flume]

I know I can't

[errant flume]

I won't interfere

[plain palm]

You can, maybe you just don't want to

[plain palm]

So you'd let him?

[errant flume]

For me everyday is spending 10 hours on my phone so I can talk to people

[errant flume]

Yep

[plain palm]

Would you still let him if it'd be someone you care about?

[errant flume]

Exactly, I'm too lazy to fix my life and myself.

[errant flume]

No

[plain palm]

But you CAN. And trying won't be a waste

[errant flume]

I can't

[plain palm]

And I care about you, so please don't.

[plain palm]

You can, you just don't want to

[errant flume]

Ugh this fucking automod is blocking my messge

[plain palm]

Try to put the "bad words" into a spoiler

[errant flume]

I like to cut myself and think about how I can end my life
Is that something a normal human would do?

[plain palm]

Depends on what you call normal

[errant flume]

No offence, you can't. You don't even know me.

[errant flume]

I'm not a normal human being

I'm mentally fucked up

I can't fix that
I can't fix my brain

I was born this way because some idiots decided they wanted kids

[plain palm]

I can and I do. Why would I spend my time writing here if I didn't?

[plain palm]

Same, but I'd still consider myself a normal human

[errant flume]

You haven't tried to k ys a few time already have you?

[plain palm]

But I've considered it. A lot

[errant flume]

I know people who like to talk to depressed people for some reason

[plain palm]

I'm just a pussy so I won't (for now)

[errant flume]

Not having gone through with it shows that you are mentally sane

While I am not

[plain palm]

I don't like it, not at all, but if I can help someone, then I will

[errant flume]

I'm sorry then
For wasting your time

[plain palm]

I'm not mentally sane, you don't know me

[plain palm]

You aren't

[errant flume]

Imma go to the pharmacy brb
Don't ping

[plain palm]

Why?

[clear sinew]

I care about you

[clear sinew]

Why exactly?