#sh vent 1: Wants of relapse.

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candid copper
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Hii! Just a little tw : S3LF H4RM, SHARP OBJECTS, ETC.

||God why did I do that? I should've had cut myself with the glass piece. ugh I hate myself FUCK IM SO STUPID!! I HATE MY DUMB IDIOT LIFE UGHHH I WANNA CRY MY HEART OUT IN HER ARMS !! I AM FUCKING SICK OF EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING, I WANT THE PAIN TO FUCKING END. I AM TIRED OF LIVING WHAT'S THE POINT OF EXISTING IF EVERYONE AROUND YOU HATES YOU? NOBODY UNDERSTANDS MY PAIN BECAUSE THEY NEVER WILL! LITERALLY SO DAMN TIRED OF LIFE I COULD KILL MY SELF!!
I've always felt alone or left out. I never really knew why but others would question ms as if I did something wrong, I don't know why but every time my mom asks me to do something I'm scared she's gonna yell at me. I always have wanted a perfect Fvck1ng life but nooooo!! but I've been through rough things and my life has been worse then every tbh. I never fit in. Or even just, be normal for once in my FVCK1NG LIFE. I always wished I was skinny and curvy like all the other girls in my class but... I couldn't anymore, I didn't eat breakfast today nor dinner. I want to become skinny before I move, I just Wish sometimes I was normal bodyshaped
I hate the way how I look, I look like case0h. I HATE MY FVCK1NG LIFE SM I RLLY WANNA KMS RN. God please save my soul ||

feral moss
candid copper
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Alr.

feral moss
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Is that okay with you?

candid copper
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Yea

wet inlet
# candid copper Hii! Just a little tw : S3LF H4RM, SHARP OBJECTS, ETC. ||God why did I do th...

I understand you, I had been through the same. Don't end it, if you're friends hate you, drop them. Don't try ki yourself, this will leave scars. No one is perfect, and we care about you, no matter what❤️ . Don't compare yourself to anyone, most of infuelcers life stiles are fake. Not everyone hates you, most of the people on this server don't hate tou, and they care about you.

sand burrow
# candid copper Hii! Just a little tw : S3LF H4RM, SHARP OBJECTS, ETC. ||God why did I do th...

hey… i just want to say, i see you. i know that pain. like actually know it — not just in theory, not just to be nice. i’ve been in that exact place where everything feels heavy and loud and you just want to scream or disappear or cry into someone’s arms because it’s the only thing that might make the pain stop for a second.

i’ve hated myself before. i’ve looked in the mirror and picked apart everything i saw, wishing i could look like someone else — wishing i could be someone else. i’ve skipped meals thinking maybe if i was skinnier, i’d finally feel worth something. i’ve felt that ache of being scared to mess up in front of the people who are supposed to love me. i’ve felt like i didn’t fit in anywhere, like i was just too broken to ever be “normal.”
so when you say you’re tired of existing — i get it. i do. and i’m really sorry it hurts this much right now.

but even in all that pain — you’re still here. and that means something. it means there’s still a chance for things to change, even if it’s slowly. and i want you to know you’re not alone in this. i care. maybe we haven’t lived the exact same life, but i understand that kind of darkness. and i’m not judging you for feeling the way you do.
you deserve love and rest and healing — not more pain. not more silence. and i hope you’ll stay, even if it’s just one more night, one more hour, one more breath. because the world needs you in it, even if it doesn’t always feel that way.

i’m proud of you for making it this far. you’re not too much. you’re not weak. you’re just human. and you’re not alone anymore.🖤

candid copper
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Noo :((