I don’t know how to feel right now. I have lost motivation to do a lot of things that i normally love, and I’ve been sleeping a lot more than usual, like i can’t get out of bed. I try my hardest to get out of bed and do things with my family, but i feel really tired and it feels kinda hard to have much emotion during it. Aside that, my mom always finds ways to get mad at me. Whenever she gets mad at me i just feel so disgusting, like i shouldn’t be alive. There’s one time she made me feel so bad i wanted to kms, but it’s ok. I cant ask for help from my dad because he always agrees with my mom, and guilt trips me into things. Whenever I want to talk to my friends about it, I feel like a burden. I’ve always felt bad talking to my friends about my vents, i feel like i’m annoying them with problems they shouldn’t have to handle, so i keep it to myself. All my friends have people they like more than me, like i’m not someone’s best friend, and that makes me rlly upset. I shouldn’t be upset over it, i’m really happy they have they own best friends, but i want MY own best friend. Another thing is, im a people pleaser, and i love being nice to people, but it sucks when i can’t make my own decisions because i fear ill make someone mad, or i can’t have anything of my own because if someone wants something and i have that thing i want, i feel extremely guilty. I’m sorry if i sound dramatic!! If anyone read this (it’s ok if no one did XD) thank you so much for reading my long rant!! Have a great day!!
#vent :) -tw, suicidal thoughts
gloomy yarrow
half sparrow
You will find your people someday just keep being yourself