Help please, I don't think I can hang on..

[unique hearth]

Hi, I'm Ari and I don't feel ok in life, I feel terrible and I don't think I belong in life, I take up space and can't fix people who want my help, I hate when I make someone mad. I don't know if I can survive.... I self harm and try to starve myself thinking I need a perfect body. My amazing gf doesn't deserve me, I can't even take care of myself. So idk what to do, so if you can, Please help...

[calm glacier]

Don't self-harm, this will leave scars. Don't transfer the pain you're feeling to your gf, friends, family. No one is perfect, no body is perfect. It's normal, everyone has some minsuses, but the key is having the least. Having none is impossible.

[calm glacier]

Don't starve yourself, this will make it even worse.

[unique hearth]

ty for speaking up, and I will try to help myself

[brittle pasture]

First eat something

[calm glacier]

Everyone belongs in life, no one or nobody will be able to fill the hole you will leave at your friends, gf, and family. You will leave like a hole in the hearts, they don't want you to leave this world. The key isn't never leaving the world, it's to live the longest. This will make you stronger, if you survive it, and it will help you later in life.

[calm glacier]

That is as easy as it seams

[brittle pasture]

What do you mean with this? I not good at this

[calm glacier]

If someone is depressed, they feel bad. This prevents them from eating, bc they think that, they have to be perfect, and lose weight.

They think that they're too fat, and everyone is judging them based on it.

[brittle pasture]

I was fat but now I’m not. My climbing teacher said that I’m too fat then I tried to lose weight and now I think I’m good with my weight. I’m 176cm tall and 78 kilograms