austere ember
A few years ago, I came out to my parents as a trans boy. Safe to say, they did not support. They sent me to a therapist and asked me tons of questions to try and weird me out and I guess scare me away from it. The most distinct one I remember is them asking me if I wanted a d*ck, keep in mind I was a minor at the time (still a minor, but I was even younger) It worked and successfully weirded me out and for the past 2 years I’ve just called myself a girl who like being masculine sometimes. However, it’s been weighing on me again that I might be trans. I know that if I am, I would never be allowed to transition in the town I live in which is partially what scares me away from the label.
Despite how much I’ve tried to suppress it, I’ve always thought that if I could choose my gender, I’d choose to be a boy. I’m bisexual, but I wasn’t to like girls the way boys like girls, and like boys the way boys like boys. I want to cut my hair short and be called a brother, a boyfriend, and a son. If I could I would, but I can’t, so is there even any point in trying to figure it out? Should I just forget about it? Ughhh idk what to dooo
silk tinsel