I've had this feeling that I've been seeing my life through a camera since i was a kid but never asocciated to something weird, i used to say i had a lot of imagination but i don't even need to think about it and I'm already somewhere else but my body, my reality. I still remember my thoughts when i was a kid, Those worlds I was in so I wouldn't be here.. I just started seeing myself from outside since 2021 and honestly thought i had a new skill, but a disorder.. I'm scared all the time, I'm scared of what i am, what will happen to me, what the world is and what people is, I don't believe that everything around me is real. i know there's something more than this physical form.. i don't feel a genuine connection with people and after a while i just notice that they don't need me, i need them.. maybe that's why I've never been in a relationship as well, i'm full of nonsense. The only way i kill this feeling is smoking weed but I'm already starting to feel pain on my chest since I've been smoking nonstop since last year, Now all I think about is getting worse, but i can't do this to my dad, he's doing everything he can and i just can't give up, not yet. I daydream a lot, but i don't even try to reject it anymore, i love it. I won't be a part of this world anymore, I won't believe on anything but the universe cuz i know we are pure energy and i know that if i die, I won't leave completely.
#Disconnection
granite idol
vague dome
you has been seen
BY DA DUCK
maybe before we start thinking about the TW shit,maybe lets first get your ducks in the same pond?
granite idol
Nah, I'll let my ducks fly away
granite idol
BY DA DUCK
can i roast ya?
fair pecan
I've had this feeling that I've been seeing my life through a camera since i was...
I have the same thing as you. The only thing different is I don't smoke . I dunno what to do either
left crest
It honestly seems to be some sort of dissociation plus depression or a depressive episode.
Feeling disconnected is pretty typical for dissociation and is often a coping mechanism of the brain, especially when extremely stressed.
I definitely recommend getting a therapist and looking into grounding techniques. Maybe those can help.
I'm very sorry to hear you're struggling so much atm. And I hope it gets better for you.
fair pecan
It honestly seems to be some sort of dissociation plus depression or a depressiv...
After realizing I'm Pan, it's much better. I was thinking I was hetero, but during that time I recently was fealing not good. I mean this month, but it's much better now.
But I still feel it.
left crest
I'm glad to hear it. I know that especially emotional distress can be a hige trigger
fair pecan
It was much more intense, and thins weren't as fun, even things I like
Now, I feel a lot better.
left crest
Very glad to hear it ^^
fair pecan
I've had this feeling that I've been seeing my life through a camera since i was...
That can be bc of high stress plus depression, that can be caused by thinking your sexuality is different then it actually is. You are born with a sexuality, and it can't be changed. It's just impossible, but I need more info to help you.