Why is life like this? Tw: sh, suicide attempt.

[summer monolith]

Do you have anyone who understands you?

[rocky patrol]

The only person who did or I thought did embarrassed me in a gc with all my friends

He said shit like I'm a failure and a disappointment

And he also told everyone that I wanted to kms

[summer monolith]

That sucks

what are your hobbies?

[rocky patrol]

Rn none

[summer monolith]

what music do you like?

[rocky patrol]

Everything feels exhausting I literally just want to die

[rocky patrol]

I don't listen to music

[summer monolith]

maybe you should

Is there anything specific that is the worst?

[rocky patrol]

Everything

I hate this shit

Living

[summer monolith]

cmon, surely there is something that stands out

[rocky patrol]

It's really fucking tiring

[rocky patrol]

The eternal cycle

Of living every day

It's exhausting

[summer monolith]

do you have a therapist?

[rocky patrol]

No

[summer monolith]

Would your parents get you one if you asked?

[rocky patrol]

They would tell me to get off the internet probably

I don't want lies anyway
Enough people have told me it'll get better

[summer monolith]

how old are you?

[rocky patrol]

14
Please don't say "you are really young and it'll get better"
We both know that's bs

[summer monolith]

I am actually 13, I hear the same thing a lot

do you have any pets?

[rocky patrol]

A dog

[summer monolith]

do you like your dog?

do you play any video games?

[rocky patrol]

How does it even matter?

[summer monolith]

how does what matter?

the dog matters because dogs are cute
if you like video games is because I don't have anyone else to play video games with.

[rocky patrol]

Anything

[summer monolith]

you didn't answer my questions.

also things that matter are a subjective experience

[rocky patrol]

I'm gonna be dead anyway

How does it matter?

[summer monolith]

becaulse hanging is not a painless experience

[rocky patrol]

I know
I'm okay with that

[golden siren]

Having things you like can help like a dog can help comfort you or having something you like to do ex: play games can help you escape from life for a bit

[rocky patrol]

Escape for a bit, not forever. The only permanent solution is death.

[summer monolith]

thats a very pessimistic veiw

all pain fades in time (not saying that everything gets better)

[rocky patrol]

It doesn't

I'll have to live life till I die

That won't change, ever.

[summer monolith]

so?

[golden siren]

Not exactly escaping for a bit can help you hang in till you can move out things will be better then tho I can't say completely better

[rocky patrol]

What's wrong with killing myself tho?

Suffer for a few mins vs suffer for atleast a few more years

Isn't it objectively better?

[golden siren]

Go out and undress. If you won't then your simply not ready to die yet.

It would technically mean you still care what people think

And what would people think of you turned to suicide for your only answer?

Listen you are strong

You can get through this

Every stage of life comes with new challenges

I can't stop you

Do what you think is best.❤️

I believe in you and am proud of you for making it this long in life

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[rocky patrol]

What if I change my mind?

[rocky patrol]

In a bad way lol

[rocky patrol]

You don't even know me

[golden siren]

I don't need to know you

Life is hard it beats you down over and over again but you just need to get back up

[brazen hull]

I know how you feel, I really do. But things can get better. I've found out for myself that being around people is my greatest depression-killer. Now you just have to find out what makes you happy. You said that you don't have any hobbies rn, but have you tried new things? Sticking to the old, lame day is your biggest problem, if I understood correctly. So why not try new things?

[golden siren]

Besides you seem like a nice person who's spirit has been crushed and buttons pushed too many times

[rocky patrol]

Not this time

[rocky patrol]

I'm tired lmao

[brazen hull]

I get that, but imagine what it's like finding something to have fun again. Do you remember the last time you really had fun? If yes, who was it with and what did you do? If you can, try to repeat that

[rocky patrol]

Yes, when I cut myself a few hours ago.

I'm tired like actually just tired

Idk how to explain it but I'm tired of just living

[marble verge]

you don’t have to
a lot of people feel like that
just tired
a lot of people don’t like how things keep going and you can’t make em stop, sometimes I feel like that too

if I were you, id try to give yourself a break, it won’t fix everything and every problem but it’ll atleast make you feel a little better, give yourself a day where you don’t have to do anything or go anywhere

I hope everything gets better, sorry about what you’re going through

[rocky patrol]

I really can't
There's way too many expectations and I really can't keep up with thrm

[summer monolith]

why did you post here if you are just gonna say the same thing to everyone who tries to help?

[marble verge]

some people just wanna get their feelings out yk

[summer monolith]

I guess. It just kinda feels pointless

[rocky patrol]

Just wanted to vent somewhere where people would listen lol

I'm sorry