Why the hell do I suddenly want to die. (TW)

[stray hound]

My depression just entered a sudden worse state and I want to (TW) || literally like best myself up and hurt myself with numerous weapons || what the fuck is wrong with me?…

[brazen sky]

Nothing is wrong with you. If you need help, talk to your friends, go to a therapy, or talk to someone that wants to help you on this server.

[stray hound]

I can’t go to therapy, I’ve been losing friends when I start venting to them about this, and I’ve been trying to talk to people on here, but I just feel like a lost cause…

[brazen sky]

If you lose friends after venting, you should drop them. It means that they are fake. If talking to people on this server, you should try again, maybe you will find someone helpful.

[stray hound]

but many of the friends I’ve had were really good friends but when I vented to them they got too scared and worried for me

[brazen sky]

It means that they ain't real friends. If they are too scared, then they are just fake. They can only feel good, but you meet real friends in the worst moments of your life. Only those that stay with you, even when life is the worst of all time, then they are real friends

[stray hound]

I feel like it isn’t so simple as that
real friends can still be worried and scared for someone or they might not feel comfortable talking with someone about that but that doesn’t mean they’re fake

[brazen sky]

You should try a therapy, and I understand you. I am also shy, but therapy could help. Please don't commit ||suicide||. Think about your family, friends, siblings, pets. Don't transfer the pain you are feeling right now.

[stray hound]

I can’t get therapy though. I’ve tried, and my parents waved it off as nothing

[brazen sky]

Try again talking to people from this server.

It could help, and you wouldn't lose anything from it.