cursive gale
I do a lot in relationships with, but there are only two relationships that i really admire. Both are bad too.. bcz makes me feel i am a thing to use.
First, i'm in relationship with a guy (who is my first love) and we're in relationship for almost 5 years. Before officially in a relationship, we did close up for 3 years. And during that time, a lot of things happened. Once i ghosted him because i had family problems that he wouldn't understand. After that, we got back together, but he ghosted me. I waited patiently because i thought he was taking revenge for what i did before. We got back together again and he did it again, up to 4 times. The last time i gave him another chance, he did something bad to me for the last time. He said, “i realized you're not my type” and that sentence had been ringing in my head for months. I mean, what was the basis for this relationship then? Then, i realized that he was avoidant attachment.
Second, i'm in relationship with a girl. We're in relationship for around 3-4 months. I do really love her (until now). She's my last love, i would to say that. But I realize she's also avoidant attachment. She gave in and pushed me, it hurt me but i kept being nice-
Fyi, i'm anxious attachment. Bcz of that, i'm thinking. I wonder, is there a possibility that i (who am anxious) will become avoidant? Because I feel like I pushed away people. And what should i do to forget about my last love? Sometimes, i want accept others love but i'm stuck to feel the love between me and my ex-girlfriend...
wind tulip