Tbh I just wanna end it but I don't want to die at the same time. My entire life I have been bullied for being fat, and I have tried everything. I worked out and basically starved my self for a month to lose wait, but I got bigger and I gained wait. Plus I already have a ton of more problems and regret, and to make it all worse my brother gets treated like a golden child. I basically feel like like the "numb little bug" lyrics. To most people it seems like I'm being dramatic but I'm not. Can someone pls give advice?
#I honestly don't know what to do anymore Tw: SH
slender stone
coral warren
I understand i just want you to know try to think about the positives in you life not negatives
slender stone
It's hard tho
coral warren
i know ive been there
slender stone
Bc there is basically no positives
coral warren
i feel that but think you have some things others my not have think of small things they you can do if you keep a positive mindset you can look past it
i know it feels inpossible
and to you i might feel like that but you keep trying because at the end of the day the choice to keep going and surviving or ending it is up to you
ps:im not great at giving advice but im trying
slender stone
and to you i might feel like that but you keep trying because at the end of the ...
Yuh I know but I'm just trying to survive the life I never asked for
I wish I was back in my past life
true fjord
I don’t think we will ever cure ourselves… some adults in real life don’t ever listen to us overreact and misunderstood us. And say it’s a “phase” and say “you will grow out of your phase”
slender stone
Ikr
true fjord
That’s why internet is some times the best!
Because some people are actually supportive on the internet!
true fjord
If I told my parents that I have depression they will tell me I'm faking
Don’t you have anyone else that’s supportive to you like a friend or grandparents?
slender stone
My friends
My grandma is kinda supportive but everything I tell her she tells my dad
My dad is not supportive neither is my mom
true fjord
Oh…well… do you want a picture of a dog to make you feel better?
slender stone
Sure ig
true fjord
Ah very good!
true fjord
I’d suggest watching a few YouTube videos to get tips on how to be thinner.
slender stone
I've tried everything tho
true fjord
Oh well… I don’t know what to do to help…
slender stone
I want to try astral projection but I don't want to die
Like I wanna die but at the same time I doh
*dont
true fjord
We have #🆘｜crisis-help-channels
slender stone
I get in so much trouble if my parents find out I do that
They think I'm faking it
slender stone
No
I'm not allowed to have a phone and the only phone I'm allowed to call on is my family's landline phone but if they hear me they will ask who I'm taking to and if I tell them my friend they will want to talk to them
true fjord
Have you ever tried talking to therapists? Talking to counsellors? Asking your friends for a therapy or counsellor appointment?
slender stone
I cant do that my parents will find out
true fjord
But how are you chatting on discord though do you have a secret device?
slender stone
I have a tablet and I hid all my "bad" apps like discord, Roblox, and my evolution science game
next olive
I feel you
slender stone
And I tired of life and my parents don't support me on anything and force their religion on me
next olive
What religion do you want to be?
next olive
I was christen then I was an atheist but now I believe in the Greek gods
slender stone
Cool
next olive
You could act the religion they want you to be
true fjord
Atheist
Oh.. well I accept everyone I actually accept anyone no matter their gender personality I worship my own god but I don’t know if your allowed to worship your custom god.
next olive
You can worship who ever
slender stone
I know but they think it's a terrible sin so I have to pretend to be someone I'm not
slender stone
Yeah that's what I've been doing
next olive
Ok
true fjord
Anyway back to the actual conversation. Have you tried going to friends house and venting to them.
slender stone
I can't go to my friend's house but I do tell them over text
true fjord
I’ll be back.
slender stone
Kk
I have to go to or my parents will catch me doing this thank both of you for everything
true fjord
No problem. Farewell!