maybe i want to be saved, but only by them. (tw)

[vital pewter]

i don't want help, but i don't rly wanna go through the trouble to kill myself. i'm so conflicted. i'd only accept help from three people. my older brother, and someone who left a long time ago. i haven't seen my older brother for so long and i miss him so much, but idek if he'll visit this summer. i just can't do this anymore. nobody here will understand, even if you say you do, you dont get it. but bye bye

[analog pulsar]

1. Don’t do it
2. Explain how I don’t understand. Like, what’s been happening?

[vital pewter]

you dont rly know me, nd i'm probably gunna- i was just missing my brother last night

i get it, you "don't want anyone to be hurt, at all" but you can't stop me, you don't know me AT ALL and so like why would i listen to you

[analog pulsar]

I dunno, I just thought I might as well try, sorry.

[vital pewter]

it's fine, i just find it kinda irritating how people still try and attempt it when i've explicitly said i wont accept it