Sexuality

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For context, I'm Genderfluid and I've identified as pansexual for just less than a year now but I'm really doubting my sexuality, it all feels wrong. I feel revolted when I have a crush on a man, I'm somehow disgusted by the thing I'm attracted to? Like that makes no sense.

If anyone has been through a simular experience or has some advice then please help.

[thorn meteor]

I mean, I don’t believe that’s a thing, but have you had any bad experiences with men?

[full carbon]

Nope I haven't

[thorn meteor]

Hmm.

Listen, I don’t know.

I’m sorry.

[full carbon]

Its okay it's not your fault

[thorn meteor]

I hope you figure this out.

[full carbon]

❤️‍🩹

[latent meadow]

Hi, sounds similar to how I feel when liking men, and the best I could pin it down to is a very strong preferance, while it doesn't make to much sense it could have something to do with it.

[full carbon]

Maybe I think I have another idea is it okay if I tell you so I can properly make sense of it?

[latent meadow]

Go for it

[full carbon]

So im biologically female and I think because of the expectation that's been placed upon me to like men has kind of forced me into liking men but not really LIKING men if you get what I mean?

Because to be honest I've always had this pressure to like men by family, friends etc

[latent meadow]

That does make sense, It's sort of when people develop crushes on others that they really just want to be friends with but, develop crushes because of society pressure. Is that close to it?

[full carbon]

Yeah that sounds like it

[latent meadow]

Okay so we can assosiate your male crushes with society pressure. Which means Pan may not be quite the right way to go

[full carbon]

Yeah but then what else is there?

[latent meadow]

Well it depends, do you like people outside the binary or just women? This will help narrow it down

I also understand that your gender identity adds to the layers of sexuality, I'm Bigender I kind of get it

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I like women and people outside the binary

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I'm glad you can understand even if it is just a bit

[latent meadow]

Well you could look at terms like bi, which has two different meanings a) two or more b) two for example women and those outside the binary. Yet really it is up to what suits you best. I'm not an expert on this, I'm still very new to it all, but I hope this helps.

[full carbon]

Thank you I do really appreciate it