#TW: suicide, cussing, mentions of abuse(?)

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half fox
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|| I've been having these thoughts for a while now but I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. One of the leading factors of these thoughts is my mom. She is a narcissist, she calls me names (like "bitch" or "pig", these are her most used ones) and she would hit me (I'd say sometimes but it's practically everyday now). she'd also blame me for her panic attacks and never explain how or why I'm the cause? Like I didn't ask to be born and I'm tired of the stuff she's putting me through ||
|| I wasn't going to talk about this even now but earlier was like a breaking point. I want to be an animator when I grow up and I've been working hard on trying to achieve that goal. My parents however want me to be a software engineer like my uncle (that I hate for personal reasons) bc according to them, he's the only successful one in the family, which is not true. My aunt does 3d and works in a government office + she does freelancing, she is FAR more successful than him. They believe I don't put in effort bc I don't show them what I do. I don't show them bc they don't support me. I tried listening to them. Coding isn't my thing I can't do that. I woke up to my dad telling me I'm going to be replaced by ai. When I told them to stop talking about it they both ganged up on me. They yelled at me, mom hit me, dad threatened to stop funding my education ||
|| I'm terrified of them finding out about me being pan and gender fluid. They don't even accept me for most "normal" people things already. It feels like they don't want me to live and at this point, I don't want to live either ||

half fox
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TW: suicide, cussing, mentions of abuse(?)

valid summit
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You got a phone?

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Record her hitting you...

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Then call the police

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Dad is verbally abusive.

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That's CPS worthy

half fox
valid summit
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gotcha

half fox
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And I can't call CPS since in my country this stuff isn't really taken seriously or seen as an issue

valid summit
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ok...

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police will just say "whatevs?"

half fox
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Yeah

valid summit
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LAST piece of advice

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Work out. Then defend yourself

half fox
valid summit
half fox
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I mean, I do work out but idk

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I have a few years left till I'm 18

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Planning on leaving

mild bobcat
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… are any of the rest of your family able to help you until then? your aunt?

hazy wing
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Coding is the first thing which will be replaced by AI. If it even gets replaced.

half fox
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Aunt is a snitch

half fox
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