#Diagnosed

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wind schooner
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So for a long time I've been diagnosed and dealing with major depression and generalized/social anxiety. It's been so hard that I would self harm and even tried to overdose on my antidepressants/antipsychotics. Obviously it failed. My closet friends have even left me for how depressed and suicidal I was. I have no real life friends except two that I BARELY see. That's why I'm here on Discord now. Anyways, turns out I was professionally told that I might have BPD. Later on, got officially diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder and ADHD. Along with emotional trauma. One problem was that my psychiatrist didn't believe that BPD was a thing. So I been on Bipolar meds and I guess it's working? Cuz suddenly I been more social, confident, open, positive, showing some empathy etc... Also suddenly focused instead of overthinking every situation. Literally yesterday I was having the BEST day of my life. It made me realize how much I missed out on, living happily and surprised that normal people felt this way alot of the time. Sadly, it was just TOO good that I suddenly thought if it was actually true happiness or if I'm just having a hypomanic episode. Mostly cuz I got no sleep at all the day before. Also was SUPER hyper and energetic at night that I was shaking and my heart was racing. I was also super talkative and talking really fast. Usually I'm not like that at all. Idk if it was even a sugar rush because I only had one Mountain Dew. One doesn't make me feel like that at all. So I really hope it's not a hypomanic episode because I don't wanna fall back into deep depression. But let's just say I enjoyed it.

lapis cradle
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Hey. My experience is exactly the same if we exclude the Bipolar II. Glad I can have someone to relate to. Hey, so if you get into a depressive episode, there are always meds and ways to cope. Even if you feel like getting out of bed is impossible, I want you to challenge yourself to push through that. I want you to force yourself up and do something to take care of yourself. Repeat positive affirmations to yourself, go to sleep listening to vids of them if you want as well. It works for me. You can get through this and I believe in you!

wind schooner