why do I feel like this?

[cosmic totem]

i feel like i have no purpose anymore. everyone is mad at me. they're better off without me bothering them i think. ||i have already had a failed suicide attempt.|| i fear i'm annoying my friends, brother and boyfriend. i'm sorry. i'm probably bothering others by saying this. i'm sorry.

[stuck herald]

You're not bothering anyone, it's okay to feel like you have no purpose, I've felt like this many times, thinking that I had no reason to live and that I was worthless, but it passes, and it's easier when you have people around you who care about you, like your boyfriend, brother, and your friends, they care and need you and will be willing to help you no matter what. I know it feels like sometimes you just want it all to end, but there are still so many things you can do, people you can meet, things you can live, and it's unfair to yourself to sacrifice all of those things. No matter how difficult it is and how much everything seems like crap, you are awesome and incredible and you can do whatever you want, you are the one in control of your life and that is how you have the ability to make your life better and better, and in the future you will look back and feel proud of everything you did to make your life worth living and that every day you will feel happy to wake up and live another day.
im not good in this things but i hope you fell better

[rigid crater]

It's okay to tell what your thoughts are, etc. There might be some people who might not like you but that doesn't stop from the fact many people love you and care your you. Nobody rn is mad at you, I promise. Don't commit ||suicide|| because the people who love you, and care for you will be deeply upset.
How do I know? I went through this also, but once you really think about it, LOTS of people, including me care for you. You matter and your not bothering ANYONE.