My brain is getting worse from the last time I vented. My body hurts, I’m tired, and my brain is even more tired. I’m slowly losing my personality and getting more jealous of my friends simply being busy over nothing. I have no idea how to come with this and I feel a SH TW! ||relapse or attempt|| creeping again. I dont even want to celebrate my upcoming birthday because of how depressed and down I feel. I have no friends in real life to invite to the party, and I’m still being forced to have one. I want to just going in a rampage sometimes, not trying to sound depressed or attention seeking lmao. But does anyone just wonder what would happen if they just went on a rampage for the plot? I dont know- but if my parents dont accept me soon im going to bug out!! Someone please talk to me for a bit if possible ><
#( TW ) Another vent because I’m going crazy
jolly wigeon
pure spade
It’s okay to ask for help (Ik it’s an overused line but it’s true) and you might not believe you have any friends but I can guarantee there are people who think your a cool person or/and view you as friend
Also I understand the want to go on a rampage but trust me the aftermath isn’t worth it and you deserve better then having to deal with the mess (idk if that makes sense)
jolly wigeon
It’s okay to ask for help (Ik it’s an overused line but it’s true) and you might...
There are a lot of people who think we’re friends in real life, and simply can’t name my favourite colour lmao
jolly wigeon
Also I understand the want to go on a rampage but trust me the aftermath isn’t w...
I’m already grounded permanently from my phone, and it being checked was the only thing I had holding me back from going insane on myself. Aftermath simply isn’t a matter anymore.
I’m so sorry I didn’t see this by the way
pure spade
There are a lot of people who think we’re friends in real life, and simply can’t...
Dang, Ik the feeling 😭
Do u like being around them tho?
pure spade
I’m already grounded permanently from my phone, and it being checked was the onl...
Do you have any hobbies or activities u enjoy that u could use to distract yourself with?
jolly wigeon
Do u like being around them tho?
Absolutely not lmao
jolly wigeon
Do you have any hobbies or activities u enjoy that u could use to distract yours...
Not really! As I lose my personality, I start blocking and leaving people in case I hurt them too badly, and lose interest in everything
My parents pretty much control my life currently so I just have interests forced back onto me
||self harm|| has been my outlet since I was 7 years old, and I still have the habit of it
jolly wigeon
It’s alrighty! It’s not your fault man
pure spade
Not really! As I lose my personality, I start blocking and leaving people in cas...
I understand the want to push ppl away but it’s worse for you and them because people do care about you and there are people that want you to feel happy
jolly wigeon
I understand the want to push ppl away but it’s worse for you and them because p...
I’m trying to use the ignore button more instead of blocking people- but when people first meet me I have to give them this giant paragraph of normal human things that irritate me
Like abbreviations that aren’t lmao, pmo, ts, or lol genuinely piss me off and I dont know why
Also anything other than “okay” pisses me off
pure spade
Can I have some examples of what’s in the paragraph (sorry im a lil confused)
pure spade
Like abbreviations that aren’t lmao, pmo, ts, or lol genuinely piss me off and I...
Kinda relatable, honestly there are a lot that I don’t even know what they stand for 😭
jolly wigeon
Kinda relatable, honestly there are a lot that I don’t even know what they stand...
They piss me off so much for no reason
Like the absolute hell does “Sybau b4 I hit u” mean like..
Come on..
I genuinely just feel like words aren’t that hard to type
pure spade
Fr!!! It took me so long to figure out what sybau and smh stand for 😭😭
pure spade
I genuinely just feel like words aren’t that hard to type
Same but I feel like if I type all my words out properly then I seem rlly creepy
jolly wigeon
Same but I feel like if I type all my words out properly then I seem rlly creepy
It honestly just seems more mature to me
pure spade
I see where your coming from 🙃
Also on the topic of hobbies u said u don’t really have interest in anything (idk i might just be interpreting it wrong) but like is there anything at all? Like any fandoms you like or things you wish you were good at?
jolly wigeon
Also on the topic of hobbies u said u don’t really have interest in anything (id...
To be honest I couldn’t care about anything any less right now lmao
My brain just doesn’t find pleasure in it anymore and it’s stressing me out
pure spade
Sounds like depression/gen
sorry that sounded sarcastic 🥲
jolly wigeon
Nahh you’re good
I also have this terrible fear of being yelled at, and anytime I relapse I get yelled at so terribly it hurts physically
pure spade
Sorry for the late reply (I was showering 🥲)
Are your parents the ones yelling at you?
jolly wigeon
Yes, sorry I had went to bed