I’m so tired of being depressed and outright hurting others- especially family with my words that I can’t even express properly. I can’t read the room- I can’t properly say what people wanna hear to keep them happy. It doesn’t help that I’ve had literal manifestations due to all this negativity. I’ve hurt myself so many times before, and I promised myself that I wouldn’t. Yet what did I do? I ended up doing it anyways..it’s already getting harder and harder for the critters in my head to push back these thoughts, and at this point, I’m not sure what to do anymore..
#Just a vent, tw for sh
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trail cloud
Azar, Hey. Do you want to take a minute? Take a minute to breathe, collect yourself before you start talking?
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It’s a bit hard to when things are mostly spurs of the moment
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What's spurs? your thoughts?
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Like…quick interactions, that’s how the issues happen, small interactions that tend to be bad
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Well thankfully we’re not arguing, cause that’s what tends to happen a lot, especially with my mother