Dysphoria? Genderfluid vs. FTM? | Pridecord | Page 1

junior steppe Jun 18, 2025, 1:24 PM

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I am really struggling recently with my gender identity as a genderfluid person. This could be due to some stuff recently that had happened, but for context I have had some really traumatic experiences with a guy who refused to acknowledge that I was anything other than a "woman".

I have been feeling lots of dysphoria over it, and I am not only dressing as masculine as possible but also considering going back on T as well. I don't know if it's my bpd and needing to be in control or if it's genuine gender dysphoria, but it's making my life more difficult the longer that time passes. I feel scared looking feminine, and I am trying desperately to find my binder again. I hate putting on makeup, unless it's specifically to look more masculine.

I feel scared though, since I live in a very red state, and due to circumstances I have very republican anti-trans family members. I want to live as a man, but I am afraid that my feelings about it will pass, and that I will regret taking more T even though being masculine has brought me nothing but happiness and comfort. Should I make the leap of faith? Should I play it safe? Please help 🙏

sharp spade Jun 18, 2025, 3:03 PM

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Honestly make the leap of faith because I assume Ur mental health is suffering a great deal because of it.

I battled with the same kind of thoughts for like 7 years and after doing it, all I could think of was why I never did anything sooner. But if Ur in a situation where you could be harmed as a result of this, don't do it.

In the short of it all, if it makes you feel like Y O U, then go for it BC the only person you'll be around 100% of the time is yourself so you might as well enjoy it. If this decision would cause any physical and or mental harm to you, don't do it

junior steppe Jun 18, 2025, 3:08 PM

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sharp spade Honestly make the leap of faith because I assume Ur mental health is suffering a...

Thank you, I will see if I can find my binders in storage soon, and make do for the meantime. The republican side of my family isn't who I am close to, so thankfully I will be safe enough to transition socially, even if it's just to being transmasc and not a trans man fully

junior steppe Jun 18, 2025, 5:12 PM

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Might invest in some brown mascara so that I can still have long lashes, but like in a masculine way

sharp spade Jun 19, 2025, 2:14 AM

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OOOoOO

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I'm glad the republican side ain't close

junior steppe Jun 20, 2025, 12:13 AM

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sharp spade I'm glad the republican side ain't close

Me too, and if they misgender me then that's their problem, not mine

junior steppe Jun 20, 2025, 2:01 PM

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Might go back on T sooner rather than later

sharp spade Jun 21, 2025, 2:13 AM

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oOoOOOOoO

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what type of T do u take

junior steppe Jun 21, 2025, 3:02 AM

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Gel T, since I have a fear of needles unfortunately 💔

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Might try switching to needles this time around to conquer my fear

junior steppe Jun 21, 2025, 2:59 PM

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And cuz T gel is transferable apparently

sharp spade Jun 22, 2025, 12:54 AM

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yeah it is transferable

junior steppe Jun 22, 2025, 7:04 PM

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Made a planned parenthood appointment for HRT!!!

sharp spade Jul 4, 2025, 3:37 PM

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WOOOO

#Dysphoria? Genderfluid vs. FTM?